If this is your last Ramadhan..........

Andai kata this is your last Ramadhan...

I came across the above statement last night on FB....tetiba tercuit pulak rasenye....made me re-think back, on how I have spent my Ramadhan so far....banyak ke tidak beribadat nye.....byk ke tidak amalan nye...Did I take the oppurtunity to make full use of the blessed month?...haihh....memang betol la orang cakap....manusia tend to be so ignorant with benda-benda keduniawi...And I am also to be blamed as one of them....Astaghfirullahalazim....

Silently I hope that this will not be my last Ramadhan...Harap-harapnye, I still have countless Ramadhan with my families....ample time for me to redeem myself....and to multiply my ibadah...this year terawikh pon not really - with Semek duk berpeluk kat kaki all the time...mengaji pon tak sempat nak khatam....although dapat la abeskan more juzu' compared to last year....instead, byk duk pk pasal preparation for Raya je...Masya Allah...isk...ape nak jadi nih...Harap-harap, next year would be better for me...Insya Allah...

Anyways, we're leaving for Kuala Terengganu tomorrow morning...excited jugakla...before bertolak, we plan to singgah and visit kubur arwah Abah...dah lama rasenye tak pergi ziarah kubur Abah....this time around, I plan to bring Nia along...so that she can have a look....Nia skarang dah kenal gambar Aki....everytime she looks at our family photos or kat Wan punye handphone wallpaper...sure akan cakap..."Aki!!!"...so cute...its a pity that she didn't get the chance to know Aki....else dia akan tahu how rock her Aki is...ehehe....

Anyways, enough ramblings for now...Selamat Hari Raya to all...Maaf Zahir & Batin from kami sekeluarga....for those who are driving, please drive safely....everyone wants to reach home safely and have a good time at the kampung...no speeding, seatbelts on and 15 mins break for every 2-hrs of driving....Safety First!!!

2 April 2009

Today birthday Arwah Abah - 2 April 1939. If Abah masih ada with us today, he would have turn 70 years old hari ni. Sadly, God loves him more. Hopefully Abah bahagia wherever he is right now. Yang pasti, family tak pernah lupa pasal Abah. Sabtu ni pon, Insya Allah, kitorang akan buat tahlil utk Arwah, sempena birthday Abah ni. Even for me, personally sometimes rasa mcm tak percaya yg Abah dah takde dengan kitorang. Macam still terngiang-ngiang suara Abah and sometimes ternampak-nampak shadow Abah duduk baca buku dalam library kat rumah ni. Terkilan jugak rasanya sebab Abah tak sempat tengok Nia. In fact Abah tak sempat pon nak tahu that he was getting his 10th grandchild. *sigh*. This is one of the things that I realized, when Abah passed away, yg things that needs to be spoken, things that are important, buat la dengan segera. Jangan la ditangguh-tangguhkan. Tell your loved ones, just how much you love them, how much they mean to you. Cos you never know, mungkin tomorrow, they might not be there with you anymore, or you might now be there with them any longer.

So, untuk Arwah Abah, Insya Allah, selagi nyawa ni dikandung badan (chewah!!hehe), I will not forget untuk sedekahkan surah Yassin every Friday untuk bekalan Abah. In fact, everynight before I sleep, I try to make it a point untuk sedekahkan bacaan surah-surah lazim so that kubur Abah lapang dan terang bercahaya. Mudah-mudahan, diringankan urusan Abah di alam barzakh dan dipermudahkan perjalanan Abah untuk ke syurga nanti. Insya Allah. Al-Fatihah.