Terdetik in My Heart

Went to surau for Zohor prayers earlier on, and managed to listen to the tazkirah from an Ustaz...tak sure plak ape nama dia...but he's on TV Al-Hijrah la petang-petang...muda lagi...something that he said, buat rasa mcm terdetik sangat kat hati...so, I'm just sharing this with everyone...mudah-mudahan dapat mengingatkan kita to the things yang lagi penting in this life but sometimes have been neglected by us...


Just in case Ramadhan ini Ramadhan kita yang terakhir:

"Untunglah mereka yang mana hari ini lebih baik dari hari semalam,

Rugilah mereka bila mana hari ini sama seperti hari semalam; dan

Celakalah mereka yang mana hari semalam lebih baik dari hari ini"

In which category do you think you have fallen into? Harap-harapnya, Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna untuk kita semua... Insya Allah...

Anak Itu Amanah Allah

Innalillah.... Al-Fatihah buat adik Faris Nor Daniel.... Hopefully, roh adik Faris, tenang di sisi Allah...and I am sure Jannah is for you dear boy.... berat hati memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul....looking at your picture, with tears running from your eyes, I can only imagine how painful it has been for you...Semoga ini yang terbaik utk arwah adik Faris...and hopefully the parents & family and strong to go thru dugaan yang sungguh berat ini...i can't comment much as I've only known about kisah arwah yesterday.... but reading about it, has truly touched my heart... sesungguhnya, anak itu amanah dari Allah....dari Dia mereka datang...and to Him, they will go back...semoga anak-anak kita semua, dilindungi, dirahmati, and diberkati dengan kesihatan and kesempurnaan always...Insya Allah...

Mode: Sedih :-'(

Let's Help Adik Faris!

Everdearest mommies..

Let's join our hands and help Adik Faris.... I came across reading his pain from Bersama Mazidul's blog.... Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi...sedihnye baca kisah Adik Faris ni.... semoga Allah pelihara and panjangkan umur Adik Faris.... may health and wellness be his after this... and hopefully semoga the parents and family are strong to go thru dugaan yang amat besar ni....so, as fellow Muslims, let us pray and contribute (if mampu) buat Adik Faris - his hospital bills are almost RM100k..... let's do our part and don't let them suffer on their own...Semoga Allah membalas jasa for those yang dapat menghulurkan bantuan...Insya Allah...

To read more about Adik Faris:

http://www.mazidulakmal.com/2012/02/faris-selepas-kimoterapi-ke-4-bil.html

Belated Birthday Present

...my post birthday present as I hit my last 20s...

didn't really know what to ask this time around, so he surprised me with this, yesterday...

ehehhee....senyum sampai tinge la mommy...LOL...

and as expected, the owner ni takde time pon lagi nak membelek the gift...

cos asyik duk kena berebut with Nia je...LOL...

Thank you Mr Love...for this pleasent surprise...

I love love love love love it...

(but I think Nia loves it more than I do kot...)

Wordless Wednesday

Nota Kaki:

- Loving Bruno Mars -

Potluck at Our Pad

Smalam first time kami meng-organize potluck at our own place... ade umah tapi tak duduk...how how how...so, last weekend,we decided untuk pi tido kat 'Summer House' kitorg yang habuk da berkepuk tu... Friday night, spring clean...(ponat!)...Saturday....chillex the whole day and did nothing...lepaking at home tengok tv empat beranak...sunday... buat potluck u alls...ahahaha...nak masak for a guest of +/- 20pax tak berani...kang ade yg makan food masin la hape la...so, we make it as potluck...tak ajak ramai pon....ajak my close friends je dulu....trial run ni....rumah pon takde furniture kan...takat ajak derang-derang ni, takde la malu cos barang tak lengkap at home...keh kehkeh....these are all my girls from umah sewa kat zaman-zaman MMU dulu.... so, sume pakat bawak food masing-masing and anak bini/laki...punye la banyak rezeki...alhamdulillah....start at around 3pm...and lasted until Maghrib...selesai mop/vacuum/lap pinggan/buang sampai by 10pm (in between nak bersilat ngen anak2 lagi..mandi la...nak susu la...suap makan la...nak breastfeed laa...tak ke super-Mak ni u ollss)....flat!!!...perghhh..all the while asal buat makan-makan, we always have the help of my mom's maid...kali ni, my mom ade jugak offer, kot nak pinjam bibiknye sehari...but i said, no need...(fuh...dengan penuh confident)....we can manage katanya...hamek kauuuu...punye la ponat ngemas rumah....baru guest 20 org...kalo 50 org?...100 org?...memang mek cater je la...pehtu next day panggil cleaning serbis...wakakakak...

all in all, i had fun catching up with the ladies...dah jadi mem-mem sume nye....dah ade anak...ade yg tgh expecting...ade yg baru beli rumah...ade yg kerja tgh booming....zasss...happy for my girls...next time bole la organize lagi....yeay....umah Sarah plak, for house-warming...i jadik committee bawak desert..huhuhuh..

Ape Pasal Takde Coverage?

Ya Rabbi...I've been checking my handphone coverage the whole day hari ni...pelik jugak...cos kat opis ni Maxis baru buat upgrade service for the network coverage...so harus la tiptop network dia kan...tapi ntah ape pasal, satu hari takde line..nak tweet pon tak boleh....then 1 hour ago, saje la try nak call out....skali out came this pesanan penaja..."we're sorry...your network line has been temporarily suspended until further notice. To avoid further disruption, please proceed to our nearest counter to make the necessary payments."... reaction: 'HAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! phone aku kena bar ka?!!!! oh-em-geeeeeeee!!"...

hadoiiii...awat la maxis ni....ni mesti sebab byk sangat guna data plan ni....ya ampun encik suami....saya tobat takmo main online game lagi...ahhaha..(main dulu tu pon sebab sangap malam-malam buta duk kena feed aaryan..sambil feeding, sambil gaming...ahahah....byk game free ade, nakkkk jugak gatai tangan duk main yg online..hamekkkk kau....padan muko...kan data plan aku dah burst...huwaaa...tension nye...dah la mek tgh kopak ni.....cos gaji last month half pay sebab maternity leave...tu pon dah abes spent for raya preparation....(fyi: kerang tak kasi 3 mths ML pon...kalo nak yg 3rd mth tu kena go on 1/2 pay leave)...haiyakkk...gaji sept ni pon lambat lagi...hubby pulak takde pi outstation kat manila this whole week...aiyaaa..camno boleh jadi mcm gini ni..iskkk....*slap*slap* own face....so how?...nampak gaya kena korek tabung laaa pi bayar utang kat maxis....huhuhu...

moral of the story??...toksah duk gatai tangan main online game lagi....pasni main angry bird je...toksah main benda lain...hiks hiks hiks...

Pffffttt....Habuk Berkepuk!!

whoaaa....lamanye tak update....bukan busy mana pon....but the thought of having to berebut laptop nak online ngen Cik Nia....terus pening rasenye...ahaha....nowadays, she's been hogging the laptop as though mcm terrer sangat nak guna....most of the times dia duk tengok cartoons lar....sampai naik pening mommy tgk cite princess...anyhow....just a few updates on us...

Raya went by smoothly....went back to my in laws in Batu Pahat for a whole week....before balik rasa mcm lama je 1 week tu...by the time da kat sana, pejam celik tup tup da time to go back to KL....tak sempat pon nak pi merasa makan pisang goreng pemes tu...adeihhh....next time balik BP have to make a point to go there...this is the first year we have Aaryan with us for raya....meaning, I have 2 kids plus one daddy to take care of during pagi raya....oh boy....berpeluh meks ok....no bibik u know....sampai tak sempat nak tolong sangat in the kitchen pagi tu...luckily my sista in law has a maid who did all the stuff in the kitchen....rasa bersalah la jugak....tapi bersilat nak menyetelkan budak2 pagi tu...ahahha..luckily i managed to get ready in time by the time hubby came back from solat raya...

raya aside...believe it or not...my maternity leave has officially ended yesterday....a total of 90 calendar days....today i am still on leave...tapi annual leave la....took AL for 2 days...and will be back in the office this coming Monday...oh-em-gee.....tak percaya je rase....3 months flew by us just like dat...sedih nak tinggal the 2 babies at home after this...da takleh nak golek2 in bed with them anymore siang-siang...:-'(

then next week mommy jadi single again...akakak...cos hubby is going for outstation for a whole week...so kite nak beronggeng ke mana?....thee hee hee...oki lar tweeps...i'm at the service centre ni...tgh serbis kete...gotta go...will update again next time...

Dah Ready for Raya?

so raya is just around the corner....are you done with your raya shopping?...baju raya anak-anak dah beli?...i betcha yg ni first skali on the list kan...hehhe....biasa la....kalo raye ni, budak-budak la yang paling syiok...and for mothers like me, i just love melaramkan my kids with new clothes and new shoes....this year, shopping baju for Nia, sampai over the budget....ehehhe....yer la, gi shopping malls, tgk girls punye clothing line, punyer la comei-comei belaka...mommy menggilak sekijap...ehehhe...tak ketinggalan for our newest and latest family member si aaryan ni...dia pon sekenit ni ade jugak baju raya....ade new tshirts, jeans and of course kemeja...i gotta admit, i did went around a few places, looking for baju melayu for a 2-3 months ol baby...ahahha....tapi harus la takde kan...my mom said, over lar kot kalo aaryan pon pakai baju melayu...aakkaka...ok what...harus cute!!!....:-p...

so what's your color theme this year? kami sekeluarga, had to recycle last year's color theme again...so it's gonna be grey for us this year...sebabnye, Babah refused to make any new baju melayu...cos he barely use the one that we made last year...so, mommy and nia and aaryan je la yg cari baju grey baru to match with him....for the first time this year, i bought all my baju kurung....normally i always tailor-made them...tak pernah beli...this year sebab baru sangat abes pantang, and tak sempat da nak anto baju kat my regular tailor tu....so had to go to Subang Parade and bought 3 pasang....masa beli baju, super stressed....cos my buncit tummy ni....i sooo hate my buncitness right now....mcm mana nak ade flatter and toned stomach ni...arghhhh....nak pakai corset, nanti susah plak nak breastfeed di hari raya....so i just hv to bear with the buncitness i guess...:'-(...

biskut and foodies for raya macam mana plak?....this year, i'm going back for raya at my in laws in Batu Pahat, Johor....my MIL ni tukang amik tempahan buat biskut raya...so harus la tak payan beli biskut bawak balik for her....so i just bought some kerepeks and agar-agar kering to bring back nanti....then ade some serunding daging too...so no nasi dagang la this year...hehehe...bau je la nasi dagang from johor...:-p....next year baru beraya kat Kuala Terengganu with my grandma...confirm meriah cos sume akan balik....teruja!!!...eheheh...

so we plan to go back hari Sabtu.....hopefully the traffic wont be as bad as i imagine....pagi tu nak ziarah kubur arwah abah dulu kat sini....then we'll shoot off around noon time, Insya Allah....what's your travel plan?...i heard over the news smalam, someone announced something about ikut plate number kete to plan for balik kampung journey...biar betoi depa ni....pelik-pelik betoi la...ahahah...whatever it is, just remember, to drive safely...think of your loved ones and your children....use your seatbelts and put your kids in their carseats too...

ok la tweeps...i've gotta go...will try to catch up just before raya kay...till then, selama berpuasa....selamat beribadat di penghujung bulan ramadan..selamat bershopping for raya...and enjoy these moments with your families and friends....

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Selamat menyambut bulan mulia, Ramadhan al Mubarak... let's pray for a truly blessed and meaningful Ramadhan this year for all of us.... my Ramadhan started off on a grey note... but i pray that the 30 days can give me solace that I hoped for... Insya Allah...so, lets increase our amalan this year...ameen...

Pffffttt....Habuk Berkepuk!!

waduh...lamanye tinggalkan blog sampai dah bersawang...takde time campo too many things utk share sampai da berkeladak jadinye...:p...so, whats happening around us now...today, Aaryan dah 48 days young...Alhamdulillah...tak banyak ragam...at night bangun 3x-4x....so mommy sometimes agak zombie-fied during the day...ahahha...we've mastered feeding while lying down...so, normally subuh onwards, i will sleep while feeding him....so takde la mengantuk tersengguk sengguk sangat...akakak....sometimes, funny jugak...cos i will catch myself snoozing tersengguk2 while feeding...ye la...lama duk tunggu dia kan...nak baring and sleep while feeding time tengah2 malam tak berani sangat...dah baca all kind of cerita baby lemas duk feeding ni....so, tu la have to stay up...

so how is kakak coping with the new addition?... ;-).... jealous?...of course la....but she doesn't vent it out on the lil brother....in fact i think she loves Aaryan and becomes quite protective of him already....although sometimes tu, (banyak times also la)....berebut jugak la attention Mommy from adik...especially at night time nak titon...so i have to make sure that Aaryan is tuck in earlier so that, by 9.30pm, Mommy is all free utk baring baring golek golek with Princess pulak... but so far, I think she has been doing great...(with a lot of help from my mom and our bibik also la)...kalo tak mahu tak clingy makcik kenit ni...:p....

what about mommy?... I'm doing as the usual...not much of dieting this time...jadinye, my weight is stuck at 60kg now...huwaaa...horror hokehhhh....so, harap2 sangat bulan puasa ni, i can lose some kilos....dah plan dah, nasi makan time buka pose ja...then sahur is cereal...with a lot of water intake in between to make sure milk production will not be affected...fuh...banyak hokeh nak kena lose...then target nak gi brisk-walking around the neighbourhood starting next week....bole la tolak si nia tu kat dalam stroller...bring her along...just to burn some calories...nak workout macam zaman2 anak dara dulu, rasa nye takde stamina lagi kot...so kayuh slow-slow....at least turun 5kg pon dah happy kot...but kalo boleh nak turun 12-15kg...ahaha...so that weight jadi mcm time before kawen dulu...achewahhhh....no harm in having angan-angan right...:p...

this weekend, we're having some family time, just the 4 of us...part of our ritual...kalo dulu lepas habes pantang Nia, we went for a quick getaway kat Pullman Putrajaya...time tu Pullman baru je bukak...guests pon tak ramai... this time, we decided to go to town...so it's gonna be somewhere in Bukit Bintang...nanti I will snap lots of pictures hokehh....can't wait for the break... boleh lepak2 and bermalas-malasan...

ok la...will try to update more often from now on...cite delivery Aaryan pon tak sempat nak post...and I have a special entry nak tulis about my spa retreat recently...:p...till next time, take care lovelies...muwakss..

When the Tough gets Going...

Crawling on NKVE

Padi tadi kami laki bini lambat sampai ke opis....the traffic was horrible....kluar-kluar je dari toll Kota Damansara, terus jam...i knew that the traffic was pretty bad, cos nampak status update from my sister on FB....but ingatkan by the time kitorg kluar rumah, which is consider lambat la jugak - kol 9am baru gerak kot.....ingatkan the traffic dah clear up a little bit....berangan je la....was wondering jugak ape da jadi sampai crawl teruk sangat ni...so, husband said, why not check on twitter, and see if there's any update...NKVE kan ade that twitter account for any traffic update....so, me as the co-driver kat sebelah ni pon, cepat2 la masuk twitter....terus nampak byk betol tweet about people being late to work, due to the massive crawl on NKVE disebabkan an overturned trailer which also terbako!!!...rentungs!!!.....i hope the driver and his kelindan is safe!!....cos looking at the condition of the trailer tu, macam agak teruk jugak la....picture below was captured by me...sorry ye tangan bergegar... amateur lar katakan...ehehheeh.....ended up, we reached Cyberjaya at 10am....yesss...macam Boss!...:p.... anyhow, Happy Thursday!

Allah Itu Maha Mengetahui

Masya Allah....today I received 3 bad news concerning my friends...I hope they are strong to go through all the dugaan...

Condolence to the family of Mieko, for the passing of her father in law, due to cancer early this morning.

Condoloence to the family of Ash, for the passing of her brother in law, due to a car crash, also early this morning.

Stay strong to Baggie, for receiving news that is a nightmare for every expecting mother, when her baby in the tummy is diagnosed with a spinal cord & brain devt deficiency...

It is true what they say, that Allah will only test those who are strong and who will be able to go through the dugaan regardless how difficult it may be...whatever it is, we are always in support for all of you...

Al-Fatihah.

Dah Selesaikan Tanggungjawab Anda?

Hi Peeps,

The dateline is closing in.....ape lagi, cepat-cepat la login to e-filing before the traffic starts building up.....this year, is the first time i did e-filing on my own without help from Ida...eheheh...all the while, she has been my personal accountant....tolong submitkan and key in efiling details for me....sesungguhnye, i hate doing efiling....so mmg la tak gheti nak buat....but this year, fahmi has to submit his tax payments as well....so nak taknak, terpaksa la buat sendiri....spent the whole of today's morning on the phone with the customer service of LHDN...thankfully, they were very efficient, unlike the typical government agencies....

so Alhamdulillah, both of us dah selesai with our efling responsibilities....with the government owing us money...yahooo!!!...so nak ditunggu lagi...what about you? have you taken care of you efiling details?

Let's Take 5

Before chairing the daily teleconference call, let's chill and take 5....jom layan Sweet Serendipity...the very the catchy! I very very loike!

Just the thing to boost you up~

I ain’t got no car

And I've got one pair of jeans

They’ve been stretched too far

And now they’re weak at the seams

I can’t say what’s nextAnd I got nothin' up my sleeve

But I don’t lose my head

Cause it ain’t really up to me

[chorus]And I’m doing just fine

I’m always landing on my feetIn the nic of time

And by the skin of my teethI ain’t gonna stress

Cause the worst ain’t happened yet

Somethings watching over me

Like Sweet Serendipity

Sweet Serendipity

I don’t ask for a lot

No nothing more than I need

Because I love what I got

Don’t need to play the lotteryI just want to be strong

At the end of the road

I don’t want to hold on

I want the strength to let go

[chorus]And I’m doing just fine

I’m always landing on my feetIn the nic of time

And by the skin of my teethI ain’t gonna stress

Cause the worst ain’t happened yet

Somethings watching over me

Like Sweet Serendipity
And what will be will beIn the nic of time

And by the skin of my teeth

I aint gonna stress

Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me

Like Sweet Serendipity

Sweet Serendipity

Like Sweet Serendipity

Don’t look fate can only find you

You can’t choose for something to surprise you

Set sail without a destination

Just see where the wind will take you

You never know when you're gonna fall

But I'm not worried

No I'm not worried

[chorus]And I’m doing just fine

I’m always landing on my feet

In the nic of time

And by the skin of my teeth

I ain’t gonna stress

Cause the worst ain’t happened yet

Somethings watching over me
And I’m doing just fine

I’m always landing on my feet

In the nic of time

And by the skin of my teeth

I ain’t gonna stress

Cause the worst ain’t happend yet

Somethings watching over me

Like Sweet Serendipity

Sweet Serendipity

Sweet Serendipity
Don’t look fate can only find you

You can’t choose for something to surprise you

Set sail without a destination
Sweet, sweetSweet, sweet

Sweet Serendipity

Sweet, sweet

Sweet, sweet

Sweet Serendipity

I don't know

Sweet Serendipity

Have You Ever Feel..

Pernah tak rasa as though you're so tired to live up to everyone's expectation out of you? I have - many times before. And sometimes rasa sampai macam dah tak larat. I just need my own space. I don't want to hear to what you have to say. I don't want to hear to that countless advice regardless how useful or true it might be. Sometimes I feel like I have the right to learn things my own way. To make my own mistakes. To do things the way I think it should be - not the way you think it should be. Basically - I'm just fed up with people giving or sharing their unwanted opinions with me. Share lah nak share. If I don't use your unwanted advice, takyah la nak buat muka or anything. Boring hokeh. urgh!! Bad chi...please go away. I need my mojo back again today.

Mode: Sangat depressed!

Ada Jugak Downsidenye

And whoever said carpooling is easy?! Haihh.. Of course, there are a whole long list of benefits in carpooling...tapi susah jugak for working mommies like me...as some of you might know, after I was transferred to the office in Cyberjaya, we agreed to sell off both of our cars in order to get a bigger ride...lagipon, since both of us would be based in Cyberjaya, harusla we will be carpooling and we thought having a second car would be a waste because it won't be moving at all...(ye la, knowing me yg sangatla malas nak drive sendirik kalo dah ade org nak tolong drvekan back and forth to the office...campo nak save costs la...jauh hokehhhh KD-CBJ tu..)..anyways, this is before i was 100% onboarded in this new role and before my life started getting haywire with this global role...@_@...

to cut the long story short, after 8 months being in this job, both of us are starting to see one tiny problem that we keep on encountering almost every week because of our carpool decision....hubby works 9am-6pm everyday and he regularly has late telecons until 6.30pm or sometimes even to 7pm...and dia ni type yg takkan leave the office earlier to login from home, so we always ended up leaving the office pretty late and reached home even later....

as for me, my role is a lil bit more flexi but with a crazier working hours.....i'm allowed to come into the office later (not necessarily kol 9am dah kena terpacak kat sini)....but my nights would always be full with meeting and night telecon calls with my global counterparts...sometimes as early as after i reach home at 8pm dah kena login balik until 10pm...or like today...i will hv 2 back to back telecons...from 8pm sampai la pukul 11.30pm....and the next day i still hv to go back to work at 9am cos hubby needs to be at his office by that hour....fuhh..sebab tu la i ended up working +/- 14 hours a day for the past few weeks....

so at times like these....i really miss my old vios...huwaaa....kalo ade kenderaan sendiri, takyah la mak kerja like 1/2 dead like this....and at least i will hv a lil bit of work life balance...ni, balik umah, nak main ngen Nia pon tak sempat....*sigh*....the underside if working with a MNC...harap-harap rezeki kami dimurahkan la after this....so that we can afford to get a second car again....aminnn!

For: Fahmi Bin Rahmat

ANUAR ZAIN - SEDETIK LEBIH

Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu
Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu
Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

And Whoever Said Marriage is an Easy Thing?

Patience

Tolerance

Hurtful feelings

Understanding

Honesty

Hair-pulling moments

Laughter

Tears

Fun

Sadness

Surprises

Love

Smiles

Cuddles

Respect

Silent treatment

Children

Kisses

...and the list goes on and on.....this is the beauty of it...but at the end of the day, you know that you still have each other...no matter what....and that's the joy of marriage...