I got a new nephew last week...So Aaryan got a new friend to play with when he's older...my sister safely gave birth to a healthy bouncing baby boy, weighing 4.63kg....yes....that was not a typo error....memang betol 4.63kg...:p....both mommy and baby are safe at home now...berpatang with my mom...tengok la gambo future BFF ni....suddenly my boy looks small di sebelah cousin nyer...eheheh....anyhow, welcome to the family...baby Zafran Khalis Bin Uzair...

My Babies

waduh waduhh....sedar tak sedar...today ngam ngam both my babies are another month older... Nia turns 31 months young hari ni...and Aaryan is officially 4 months...Alhamdulillah, my babies are all well, sihat, gebu, montel, bijak and talkative!!!...ahhaha... kakak can go on and on talking non-stop...and i noticed this past few weeks, she can start playing with a wilder imagination....she can act out princess scenes from the disnye movies that she loves so much...on top of that, can even sing....she plays with her dolls and babies and speak to them in her own version of english...ahahah....tah ape dia ckp...pong pang pong pang bukan main lagi...english version pelat i'd say...:p...

as for adik...si dobot yg forever happy....he's never fussy...smiling all the time...nangis only when he's angry or sleepy...still not showing any signs of turning over to his tummy....and kepala pon still jugak duk head-banging...ahahah....takpela...berat kena tarik dek pipi kot...:p....

macam tak sangka plak, how fast time flies...goshh...rasa mcm baru je kluar spital...anyhow, i'm enjoying my time with both of them...snuggly wuggly time...everyday bau susu masam kena muntah dek Aaryan pon best je...akaka....perfume to mommy's nose...LOL...whatever it is, i'm glad to see both my babies growing up healthily, Alhamdulillah... next year kite plan birthday bash hip & happening lagey...:p

Now:

1. Baby A sangat active in the tummy - everytime he kicks, sampai rasa nak terkencing pon ade.

2. Mommy can no longer lie down macam biasa - end up sesak nafas and cannot breathe - so its 100% sideways kalo tido nowadays.

3. Nia is getting oh so very cheeky - she have started to converse in English - so Mommy is very happy.

4. Baby A is getting bigger and heavier - sometimes end up Mommy had to solat sambil duduk je.

5. Mommy dah start kebas tangan/kaki like previous pregnancy - and the backache pon sudah start @_@

6. Nia dah pandai blow bubbles on her own and can count 1-2-3 till 10

7. Mommy can start thinking of stuff to buy for Baby A - Babah cakap maybe next month we can start going to the shops - yippie yay!

8. Nia dah pandai kenyit-kenyit mata, muncung mulut and say "I love you too Mommy" *melts*

9. Baby A is already 24 weeks old in the tummy - lagi 16 weeks - Mommy will finally get to see you - Insya Allah

Macam mana rasa Braxton Hicks?

During my previous pregnancy, I never knew if I were having/feeling Braxton Hicks contractions. But today, I've been feeling a sharp shooting pain down under. At first ingatkan it might be Braxton Hicks. Tapi terpikir plak, takkan la I can feel Braxton Hicks as early as 6 months. Dari pagi duk rasa, it came once in awhile, on and off. Makin banyak time dlm Townhall session tadi. After Townhall, came back to my desk terus IM two other mommies, that I knew they had Braxton Hicks before. So verdict nye adalah, Braxton Hicks should feels like contraction (which I still dunno how, cos dulu Nia kluar ikut tingkap)... Basically its similar to period pain, rasa somewhere near your abdomen dekat ari-ari kat bawah tu....so, confirm whatever I'm feeling right now is not Braxton Hicks ler....

Googled for sharp shooting pain during pregnancy.....the result is, it could be due to the vaginal spasms aka round ligament pain:

"It just means that your muscles are stretching, and it is really hitting those nerve endings in that area, and it is perfectly normal. As your belly stretches and gets bigger, these pains should go away. However, it you notice any severe pains that are accompanied by bleeding of any time, it is time to call the Gyne."

So I guess its nothing to worry about. Baby A (no longer Baby X since we've finally decided on the name) is very much active today. Kicking and squirming most of the time. Lucky for me, he's not so big yet, so takde la rasa senak sangat perut. Guess in 1 month's time it'll be a different story. Next checkup would be in March - can't wait to see you again Baby A. This time, Mommy will try to bring along Kakak Nia so that she can join in the fun and see you in the screen.

Marking the Half Way Journey

Believe it or not, I've actually reached my half way mark for my second pregnancy. Cepat betol la time di akhir zaman ni. It still feels like it was yesterday when I joke to Fahmi and told him we're expecting no.2 soon. Another 20 weeks (or maybe earlier) and we're going to have Junior out with us (Insya Allah) and Nia will become a Kakak (Hehe).

Anyway, we did our scan last month and Alhamdulillah, our Gyne managed to catch a glimpse of our Junior's gender. So Insya Allah, in June, we will have a boy joining the family. *grin* Pasnih, Babah nye dah ade rival la at home since he's not gonna be the alpha male at home anymore. Dah ade jejaka baru in the house. Huhu. Excited bagai macam. No preparation has been done for the lil kiddo as of yet.Mummy and Babah have been super busy and we might have not been paying much attention to you all this while, lil guy. But Mummy promised, we'll do much better after this.

Starting with your name. Although you are just 5 months young, we have already decided and pick your name from the longgggggg list that Mommy gave to your Babah. I pretty much over-ruled his selection, since he chose Kakak Nia's name last time - so our deal was - if we were to get a boy - I get to chose your name. (He He). So now, Mommy is trying to teach Kakak Nia, on how she can pronounce and call you later. But she's still blabbing like a baby so most of the time we ended up talking and calling you Baby instead. Ok la tu - for the time being. Hehe.
In a few months time, Babah dah promised to take us out to shop for your lil clothes and other stuff. Nothing much to buy this time - since most of the stuff are still new from Kakak Nia's time. But you will definitely get some new clothes and towels and such. Takkan la nak share plak towel sume tu kan. He He.

Ok la - we'll see you again in 1.5 weeks time during our routine date with Dr Susanna. You take care okay lil guy and remember, Mommy, Babah and Kakak Nia are all excited to meet the real you in 20 weeks time. Mwaks!

It's A Boy!

Congratulations congratulations and congratulations to our beloved friends, Ash & Mizi, who have just greeted their second child into this world yesterday afternoon at 3.35pm... Both baby and mummy are doing great, and I can just envy Ash for such an easy delivery that she had this time around.... Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Compared to her 1st delivery for Qadeja, Baby Umar's birth was pretty much smooth sailing and fairly quick....Ash felt some contraction started yesterday morning and by the time she reached the hospital, she was already 4cm dilated!! How awesome is that?!!!. :-)....Next, the Gyne just induced her a lil bit with some water and with just 3 push, Junior No.2 popped out weighing a whooping 3.6kg!!!

So harap-harapnye, our second one nanti pon akan jadi as easy as this....but somehow i doubt that....since my previous delivery was a C-Section and if I can go for a normal birth (which I'm hoping I can) this time around, it would be similar to someone yg baru nak beranak first time normal since the passage is not there yet...so yes, the tearing and everything lar....haihh....cuma harapnye this time, baby is totally engaged la....so that takyah go for C-Sect....

Whatever it is....let's toast to sleepless nights and diaper-changing duty! :-)...Hail Mommies~

Mommy Me

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.

She never existed before.

The woman existed, but the mother, never.

A mother is something absolutely new."

I came across this line while browsing the web looking for fun outdoor activities for me to do with Nia. Somehow I have never thought of becoming a mommy as what the statement mentioned. For us, when a new baby is born, the attention will always be on the bundle of joy. Not realizing that the new mommy would also needs all the emotional and psychological support at that moment. We tend to forget, that being a mommy is also something alien to the lady of the house. I actually felt the same way when I first had Nia. The first 1 month was quite a challenge. I was still in pain due to the C-Section. Husband was working night shift. Nia wakes up regularly at night and sleeps all thru the day. My milk supply was very little which made Nia cranky for lack of milk and in return made me feel really sore after all the biting and struggles to feed her. There were times that I actually cried in the toilet feeling very much hopeless and not knowing what I really needs to do - rasa alone to the max laaa time sedih2 macam ni. Always wanting to be the perfect mom, and feeling that the expectation is so great from everyone. And listening to stories from other new mommies who seems to be coping splendidly well with their own babies - sangat depressing OK.

Somehow, I felt this was one of the reason that affected my willpower to keep on breastfeeding Nia. Feeling depressed and as though I am doing everything wrong at that time. Tapi, over time, as I get used to this new mummy-role, things started to get easier. I can juggle doing many things at one go. And I am no longer upset even if I don't get enough sleep and rest. I think watching Nia's milestones and knowing that I always have a special place in her heart, made me stronger. Lebih-lebihi lagi if I know that she would choose me over anything or anyone else when she needs comforting - now that is truly remarkable. You just know that you have this special bond with your baby that even your spouse would not understand.

I guess other moms might feel the same way as I did, cuma maybe no one wants to bring it up. All I can say is, being a first time mummy is definitely not easy. It takes a lot of patience, morale support and preseverance. But at the end of the day, everyone will pass thru it. The key thing to remember is, just do it your own way the way you deem right, they way you see is best for you and your child. Mommies are defintiely a superwoman. It's not an easy job to manage babies, your home, your husband, your career, your life, etc. But in good faith, if I were offered a chance to be a full-time mommy, I wouldn't hesitate to say YES as soon as I can.

To all mommies out there, just remember that we are all SPECIAL especially to our babies! Hail MOMMIES!

Feeling Scared to Bits

Last week, post our raya in Terengganu, we went back to celebrate Eid with my in-laws in Batu Pahat, Johor. Things were going on fine until our third day in Batu Pahat...out of the blue, Nia suddenly contracted fever on Tuesday - 14th Sept...thinking that it is nothing serious, we brought her to a normal child's specialist that day itself...at the clinic, we realized that her body temp is rather high for a normal fever, which was 39...so the Paed inserted Voltaren to help to control the fever...Back home we went and she seems to cool down a bit...

The same night, we had a BBQ and a small family gathering at home....by 7pm Nia was all up and running and active as the usual...her temp was still there, but only mild...we gave her the antibiotics and fever syrup as instructed...around 9pm, seeing that she's tired and seems to be a little clingy to me, I brought her inside to change and to put her to sleep...as we went into the bedroom which was mildly air-conditioned, suddenly she started shivering...thinking that she's too cold, I brought her outside to the living area to change her....after thats done, we went back inside the bedroom and i switched off the air-cond....cradled her and started reciting the prayers for her to sleep....suddenly, I noticed that her eyes started to roll up and her body is jerking....Ya Rabbi.....seeing her eyes rolled up - reminded me during the time Abah tengah nazak....panic and takut at that time, Tuhan je la yang tahu....immediately i ran outside while carrying Nia, and menjerit mcm org gila calling my husband yang tengah duk entertained the relatives....luckily we had a relative who is a Doctor amongst our guest at that time, and she quickly told us to strip Nia naked of all her clothes and her diaper....at the time, Nia dah tak sedar, she's having a fit attack due to the high tempreature - 40.1C....we sponged her with water and ice....all the time, mulut ni tak abes-abes duk berselawat and calling her name....menggeletar tangan and kaki Mummy....Ya Allah - never ever I would want to go through that moment again....after 1-2 mins that seems like eternity - Nia gained consciousness again and started crying and calling out my name....Alhamdulillah - that was a moment that I would never ever forget - leganye - syukur teramat sangat that she's back with us....

We kept sponging her, and the relative Doctor gave her another round of Voltaren....since her temp didn't go down much - it lingers around 38-39, we immediately dress her back and rushed to Pantai Medical Centre, Batu Pahat...So, checked-in and had to spent 4 days of our raya at the hospital....I didn't really mind sleeping and staying at the hospital, as long as I know that the doctors and nurses are around in case Nia had another round of fit attack...

Alhamdulillah, after 2 types of antibiotics, 4-5 bottles of glucose drip, the temp seems to settle and we checked out of Pantai MC on the 17th of Sept....I pray to Allah, that this episode will never ever repeat itself again and that Nia will always be a healthy, bubbly baby....Insya Allah

Show Mummy........Where's your.......

Checklist

Need to complete Hari Raya shopping for Semek and Babah by next weekend. Cos wiken Merdeka nanti dah nak balik Batu Pahat. And after that its too close to raya - and I hate shopping in thick crowd.

Some checklist, for Semek's missing items:

• Baju Kurung - Check
• Jeans - Check
• Slack - Check
• 3 pairs of Dresses - Check
• 4 pairs of top - Check
• Leggings - Check
• Socks - Check
• Panties - Check
• Kasut Raya - Pending
• Hair Accesories - Pending

Adoiiii....I didn't know that Raya can be so costly for a small kid. Mummy pon ade 3 pasang baju kurung je. Angan-angan nak beli a pair of caftan mcm tak menjadi je. Isk isk isk. Kasihkan anak punye pasal.

There is No Remorse & Regret

Everyone warns me that having a baby will definitely change my life and my husband's. My mom was one of those that has been telling me countless times during my pregnancy to get as much rest & sleep as I can back then cos when the baby comes - we'll be deprive of all this tiny pleasures. Yes, we have been having sleepless nights, tight monthly budget, being pooped and peed on and many other things that you can think of. But personally I would say that it was all worth it. I love the look on Nia's face when I reached home from work. Her face will just lit up when she sees me at the door - all arms and feet flying in the air seeking for attention and in her own silent way to ask me to pick her up. And when I do, she'll reward me with the cutest little gummy grin and some gibberish talk of her own - I suppose it's just her way of saying "Mummy! You're back & I've missed you so much!".

I came across this at BabyCenter. It's just something to share with all Mummies and future mummies out there. Some of you might have experiences that is worth sharing with the rest.

• You discover an inner strength you never realised you had.

I believe so. I discovered that I no longer think of only myself. Instead Nia is always the first factor to be considered when it comes to our decision-making.

• You accept that the last 15 pregnancy pounds you can't seem to shift are absolutely worth it.

Absolutely. Who else can give me a perfect tiny baby like the one that I'm having at home. Hehe. But that doesn't mean that I need to keep that extra kilos. Hi Hi Hi.

• You don't need a clock any more - your baby now sets your daily schedule.

Memang betol. Now nak bangun solat subuh during weekends memang confirm tak payah alarm clock. Sharp 6am je Nia bangun for her feeding. Senang cerita.

• You respect and love your own parents in a new way.

Definitely I respect them. I can't imagine how Mama can actually cope with 5 kids at home. Memang lah jadi full time housewife. But still, with all the cooking and cleaning and gardening and my daily fights with Kak Lin..ahaha...and God knows what else lagi lah. Love you to bits. XoXo.

• Any pain your baby suffers feels much worse than your own.

Sangat tak tahan when I see Nia suffering from a block nose this past week. Kesian dia cannot breathe properly. End up kena sedut hingus ngen Abah. Baru lega.

• You don't mind going to bed at 9pm on a Friday night.

I crave going to bed as early as possible nowadays. I sleep when the baby sleeps. LOL.

• Your heart breaks much more easily.

Jadi extra sensitive. Haha. Is it the hormones? Or the mummy-instinct kicking in. :p

• You discover how much there is to say about one little baby tooth.

Ha..This one tak tahu laie....Cos Nia has yet to start toothing..

• You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

Hahaha...so true...how can I resist to look at those chubby cheeks...ngapp ngapp ngapp....

• You're no longer disgusted by babies' bodily functions - in fact, you're fascinated by them (hooray, a poo!)

This is more for mummy, cos mummy gets very excited if Nia drops a big poo-poo in the diaper....haha....but Abah seems to always be peed on by her....lucky Nia takde machine gun nak pancut....cuma fountain je for Abah...:p

• The sacrifices you thought you'd made to have a baby no longer seem that big a deal.

All the heartburns, backache, sore feet, numb fingers...what's that?....easy peasy lemon squeezy.....hahhaah....

• You respect your body ... finally.

I heart my body. I heart my booooncit tummy. ^_^

• You realise that a baby's comforter has magical powers!

It's the bantal busuk for us!!!

• You give parents with a screaming baby an "I-know-the-feeling" look, instead of a "Can't-they-shut-him-up?" one.

OOoo...sangat la...I feel you kinda look....it used to be..haiyooo....why laa this kid cannot stop crying look....paradigm shift people...

• You make time for one more baby hug and kiss, even if it means you'll be late.

every morning oso extra kiss....extra hug....extra hours in the traffic jam to work.....

• You realise that it's possible to love a complete stranger.

the first week, mcm takut

the second week, macam amazed

the thrid week, you're perfect!

• You learn that taking a shower is a luxury, never mind a trip to the hairdresser's.

mummy now can shower shorter than 5 minutes and be ready if Abah is not around to wait for Nia in the room...memang lah mandi kambenn

• You finally get to speak to the shy neighbour in your street, because you've got a baby in your arms.

people/society seems to be friendlier when you have a baby around....everyone seems to be looking at you and telling you how cute the baby is....alhamdulillah...

• Every day is a surprise.

hahaah.....yesterday mummy became super excited cos she saw Nia managed to fully hug her bantal golek...and after that, Nia dah boleh hold her squeeky bear and wave it around!!pastu boleh tgk tgn sendiri with an amazed look on her face....I think she just realized that she actually has two arms and two legs...hahahaha....

Dah Sampai...

Of all the things that we bought when I was pregnant of Nia, we forgot to get a bottle warmer bag. So trip² pergi ke hospitals before this, susu Nia sume kena wrap pakai kain nappy je to keep it warm cos mommy tak habis pantang lagi so cannot go to the mall to get a bag for her. Hehe. Cian Nia. By the time nak minum susu, da sejuk dah. So, since littlewhiz is still on sale for the whole month, I decided to get for her the warmer bag that I've seen at Mothercare before this. Ade RM5 discount and of course, since mommy is paying for this and not your Abah, I chose Pink for you. Else, Abah mesti asyik nak Black je. Isk. Cepat jugak website ni process my order. It took them only 2 days to confirm and ship the order. Hari ni dah dapat. Memang impressive! Harap²nye this bag tahan lama la. It looks ok. The material is environmentally friendly. And since it doesn't have any divider's inside, we can even use the bag later on when Nia starts weaning to keep her bottled food warm.

Toothy Grin

Yesterday afternoon I had a wonderful surprise from Nia. Finally, she gave me her full toothy grin. All this while ade jugak dia attempt untuk senyum. Tapi selalunye tak berapa menjadi. Hehe. But yesterday, for the first time, Nia managed to smile to the fullest - although takde gigi - that makes it even much more cuter.

Nia is 1 Month!

Bath Time

I'm super proud of Abah today. For the first time he decided untuk mandikan Baby Nia pagi ni. When it comes to Abah and Nia, mesti la ada adegan-adegan yg tak dapat dielakkan. Today I let Nia tido lama skit. Dah pukul 10.30am baru kejutkan dia untuk mandi. In the beginning, everything is going as plan. Abah dah buka baju Nia and wipe her bottom clean. So angkut la Nia untuk masuk dalam bath tub. I left the both of them together for 5 seconds untuk amik towel, and next thing I know, Abah dah terjerit-jerit in the toilet. Ingatkan ape la, panic jugak dibuatnya. Rupanya, anak dara dia dah wee-wee on him and in the bath tub. Aiyoo! Dah kena tadah warm water all over again. So out Nia and the water go. Abah dah kasi buka seposen plak, panic jugak dia kena wee-wee ngen baby agaknya. haha. Kesian pon ade jugak tgk muka. Takpela, first timer. Below some of the snapshots of today's happenings.



To Abah, practice makes perfect. Petang ni kita try lagi mandikan dia ok. Hehe.

Abah oh Abah...

Since bergelar parents and getting into parenthood ni, macam-macam yg kena adjust and get use to. Yerla, now no longer can wake up from sleep late. Nak bangun lambat pon takleh cos dah ada 'au de natural' alarm tido kat babycot sebelah ni. Takpon, even if the 'alarm' tak menangis, memang dah automatic bangun awal. I suppose the body clock pon dah adjust ikut the baby's timing. Bagus jugak la, at least nak bangun for Subuh now takyah nak set alarm da. Since 6am for sure Miss Nia akan bangun untuk minum susu.

Semalam something really funny happened to us. Me and hubby made a deal between the two of us. Since during the day and up until 10pm I will be taking care of the baby, so I get to sleep the first part of the night. Meaning, the midnite feeding and the 3am feeding will be his shift. Afterwards, the 6am shift onwards sume mommy punye shift la. But Abah being Abah, even if it is his shift, mommy still has to wake up sama. Buat susu, change diaper, cuma Abah will do the feeding and the burping and putting Nia back to sleep again. Last night in particular was hillarious.

As usual, at 3.15am sharp, our little Nia started whimpering to be fed. Hubby dah pesan before we went to bed to wake him up once the baby starts crying. So, I woke him up lah. Cakap, "Yang, baby da start nangis tu..bangunlaa...nak kena kasik susu.." Ada ke patut, suamiku yg still drugged with sleep ni boleh tanye dalam keadaan mamai..."Ha...nak kasi susu? Nak buat ape kasi susu?" Adoiii.....hahaha....nak je cobit kat perut kasik mata cik abang ni terbukak luar skit. Nia da makin kuat melalak, dia boleh blur tanye ape pasal nak kasi susu kat baby...ahhaha...Takperla, hubby pon baru nak get a hang in the fatherhood thing...hehe...the best of all, siang smalam, he actually remember yg dia cakap mcm tu and we had a good laugh because of this... Kisah-kisah nak kasi susu ni memang macam-macam and of course funny...especially yg bangun tengah2 malam ni...hehehe...

But whatever it is, we are having fun. Baring atas tilam bertiga with Nia. Tickling her with the blankie at her nose - and watching her wrinkle kan hidung dia afterwards - super cute! Memang betol orang cakap, now I cannot imagine our life without Nia with us. So it's a salute to Abah, mommy and Baby Nia. Mwahs!

Nia's First Attendance to a Birthday Bash

It was a small get together that we had at home last week. Sempena Sufiyya's 2nd birthday as well as untuk buat tahlil arwah for Abah since 2nd April was his birthday. Since I was still in pantang, Abang Yo and Kak Ana decided to have the party at Kota Damansara instead of their place. So for one day, I get to eat real food instead of more ikan bakar and sup sayur. Tapi tak banyak la, I just had a 4 sticks of satay, some potato salad and seafood carbonara.



Also, it was Nia's first attendance to a birthday party. The little miss slept all through the bacaan Yassin and even during the cake cutting ceremony. Cousins dia memekak, terjerit kat sebelah main balloons pon dia tak sedar. Hehe. Bagus jugak, mommy & abah can actually enjoy eating and being in other people's company instead of the two of us je. Hehe. So some pictures from the party, below.

Nia at 25 Days

Rocker Nia Dah Sampai!

Yayyy!!Rocker and head snuzzler Nia dah sampai today. Cepat jugak kedai ni deliver, ordered on 1st April, 3rd April da dapat. Impressive service - boleh la mommy order lagi barang untuk Nia kat website littlewhiz.com nanti. Anyway, Nia da excited nak test duduk atas rocker ni. Mommy pon ingat nak tolong assemble la untuk Nia. Dengan bersemangat bukak kotak rocker tu. After dah baca instruction, complicated lar pulak. Ada nak kena pasang screw bla bla. Sorry eh Nia, mommy tak reti la, kena la kite tunggu Abah balik office malam ni pasangkan. Nanti malam kang Nia boleh test duduk ok baby.

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Bila da siap pasang....look at miss pricess sleeping peacefully on her rocker...