Oppsss....Overly Late Entry

Happy 3rd Anniversary dear Husband.... I love you then, I love you even more now and in the future...

Note: terlambat nak post cos I had to celebrate our anniversary confined in the hospital bed back on the 14th of June, cos Aaryan had to be warded because of jaundice...ehehe...nanti kite celebrate betol2 after pantang is over kay - complete with the 2 kiddos in tow... ^_^

Introducing Baby A

Hello lovelies...

Lambat plak update... Been overwhelmed since the arrival of Baby A last Friday... Alhamdulillah, the surgery went smoothly well... Can't story much about the delivery right now cos I'm back in DSH with Baby A bcos of jaundice... Just nak introduce our Junior to all je dulu... And I will update the story morry in the following entries kay...

So meet the infamous Baby A... Which actually stands for: Ahmad Aaryan Faheem Bin Fahmi... Out into the world approximately around 9:05am on Friday, 10 June 2011 weighing 3.02kg with the length of 48cm... Mommy decided to call him Aaryan... Tp Babah nak panggil Ryan (glamer katanye akakaka).. Tak kisah la, asalkan both ada maknanya... I dun really mind... So whats in the name this time?..

Ahmad: Prophet's name
Aaryan: Utmost strength
Faheem: Brilliant (sama mcm kakak nye for Aqeela)
Ryan: Gate of Heaven

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Final Day Countdown

Dear Baby A,

Percaya tak percaya, we are almost there reaching our finishing line tomorrow... Macam-macam we went thru together... From Mommy's early evening sickness... Muntah everytime balik kerja dalam kereta Babah..ahahaah... To mommy's continuous constipation...ahahah... then came along the piles (erkkk....ya ampun - make sure next pregnancy tak kena lagi da benda alah ni....seksa!!).... then kite went thru a very high fever once - luckily we were not admitted - although babah dah jadi nurse ala2 nurse kat DSH jugak cos mommy da lembik to the bone... but Alhamdulillah, you are still growing strong in the belly... and I'm very thankful for that... tomorrow Insya Allah we will meet and greet each other for the first time and I have to say I'm quite nervous as much as you are too... so nervous that Mommy even had a nightmare malam tadi hokehh...eheheh...anyhow, on top of all the nervousness, I am very anxious and excited to see your chubby face... my prayers for the past 9 months tak pernah stop even once so that, baby mommy ni, sihat and sempurna, Insya Allah... so, lil guy, make sure you get enough rest today, cos tomorrow is going to be a big day for all of us... till I see you in the operation theatre esok, just remember, that i love you so very much!...

To my dearest Princess Daania...

Mommy is not sure how much of all these happening that you can actually understand...but one thing that I want you to be sure of is, regardless whatever it is, you are still very much the princess of my heart... i love you so much and i'm very proud of you that you are going thru this very bravely... and i am very sure that you will adore your baby brother in no time too...ehhehe... frankly, mommy da tak sabo da nak amik gambo Nia baring berdua with Baby A nanti...i'm sure you both will look very cute...i'm sorry that i won't be lying next to you when you wake up from your sleep for the next 2-3 days....but mommy will be back home very soon and you can also come over and visit mommy kat hospital nanti ok sayang....till i'm back home, make sure to behave yourself, dengar cakap wan and kakak imah hokeh...love you lots baby girl...

To my Husband...

Thank you for being next to me all through out this journey... thank you sebab jadi tukang urut blakang when i'm all over the toilet bowl... thanks sebab tolong basuhkan my puke afterwards...ekekekke....thanks for accompanying me to the countless visits to the hospitals and clinics without fail...thanks for being my nurse when i'm down under... thanks sebab jadi tukang paksa makan ubat...akakak....else, sure sihat lagi lambat kot...lol...thanks sebab tolong letak minyak angin and giving me a backrub during those wicked bad days...thanks for waking up and staying up next to me when i can't seems to fall asleep...thanks for sharing my fears and my worries and for reminding me of what is important...thanks for coming into the OT with me tomorrow and most of all, thank you for being the father of my children...i love you very much...

So finally, mommy is ready and will be all packed today to check-in to Hotel Hospital tomorrow morning... till my next post with details on Baby A's arrival, take care all and do pray for my safe delivery, Amin... :-)

A Question That I've Answered More Than 10 Times

So ok... I've finally reached to a point whereby I'm getting upset when people are asking me this particular question... "Kenapa nak bersalin Ceaserian? Go for normal delivery lah.." seriously people....I would've chosen vaginal birth if I can.... Not that I really want to have a ceaserian operation to be done on my tummy again... my experience from the first one dulu pon cukup la to let me know that the healing bit after the operation memang sangat seksa rasenye.... Kalo people yg buat VBAC, in 2 weeks time dah back to normal, for me last time, after 1 month I can still feel the pain from the operation.... so why on earth would I wanna choose the hard way of giving birth?.. haihhhh... the problem now is, i don't have a choice.... the position of Baby A is way too high up in my womb...if i were to go for a normal vaginal birth, it will be a very longggggg delivery which can lead to stress to both mommy and baby.... on top of that, the doctor will need to use either the forcep or vacuum to pull the baby out... now this is where the tricky bit comes in.... nak pakai forcep n vacuum memang boleh, tapi another problem is sebab the baby is too high in the womb, those two equipments are too short to reach the baby's head....so it will also lead to an emergency c-section operation.... on top of that, due to the long delivery, that can cause distress to the baby or it can lead to a stop of oxygen supply to the baby sebab mommy also in stress (and will cause brain damage to the baby) or worse still, there's also a possibility that we might lose the baby....now why on earth would i want to pose all these risks to my unborn child?... hmmm... ok la, i know la all of them are asking out of good intention, but seriously, do u think we would make a decision without consulting and getting the best opinions from the doctors?.... its a major abdominal surgery we're talking about here.... and FYI, ceaserian birth is considered to be one of the safest method to delivery a baby nowadays since you'll have all the specialists in the OT at the point of time...

On top of that, I've heard so many stories of other mothers who were also advised to opt for a ceaserian delivery but yet insisted to go on normal vaginal birth and ended up, having a baby yg mentally slow due to all the stress and cut of oxygen flow to the brain.... Nauzubillah.... selagi boleh avoid and minimize any potential risks to my child, I will do just anything, be it going under the knife again....

So please la people.... stop asking me and using that tone as though i'm making the biggest mistake of my life when I chose to have a ceaserian as what my doctor has advised.... Because this is our child, and we are doing this our way.... what we hope from you are your prayers, so that everything will goes on smoothly, Insya Allah...

One Small Happy Family

Last Day!

Alhamdulillah... my second most waited day (most waited day harus la D-day next week kan :p) for this month da sampai...ehehe...today is my last day at work...last day masuk office....last day kena attend meeting...last day to dial in to telecon....last day to submit documents in GLL.... last day to send out any emails from office outlook....ekekek...then, its 3 months holiday ya'll... fuhh!!....tak saba tunggu 6pm...weeehooo!!!

for the past few months kerja menggunung bagai nak rak...there were a couple of times that i actually broke down and cried sebab tak tahan with the nightly telecons (dang!! cry baby...akaakk).... tapi the following day, buat jugak lagi...ahaha... that's how resilient we are...yer la, since hidup bergaji ni, terpaksa la kan... so now its my time to rest...amik cuti a couple of days earlier, nak siapkan any last minute items before Baby A pops out next Friday.... and actually I wanted to use these last few days, to have some TLC moments with Princess Nia yg manja tu ha...ekekek...just to give her some extra attention before that attention kena divert kat org baru nanti...ehhehe...

ok lar...back to work...last day to concentrate...tomorrow onwards bole joli katak before the night feeding duty calls...:P...have a good day lovelies!

Breast Pump

Alamak!! In our eagerness in preparing for the arrival of Baby A, kami terlupe nak test out my old breast-pump... So 3 days ago, Hubby brought out the box and test it out... and to our horror, pump tu tak bergerak at all... not a single sound...not a single movement from it, tuko bateri tak jalan, plug in kat power plug pon sama - still tak jalan jugak.... aiyak...before this, I loaned the pump to my sister-in-law since she was breastfeeding and didn't have any pump of her own... memandangkan pump yg ade kat rumah ni tak pakai, kasi je la pinjam daripada duk lam cupboard - membazir plak... and everything was working perfectly fine - in fact she even tested before returning it back to us, and the pump was still moving... suddenly 1 week before the baby's arrival, saja la pump ni nak buat perangai pulak kan...hishhh... so, this weekend nampak gaya terpaksa la kami menapak pi kat service centre dia... have to check what is wrong with it... i hope it can still be fixed with a 'reasonable' price... else, kena pk alternative lain la pulak... :-(..

How Was Your Weekend?

Our weekend was packed!

Sabtu pagi, we went for my last check-up with the Gyne kat DSH. Alhamdulllah, Baby A is looking fine - Doc cakap baru 2.4kg - macam risau la pulak - a lil bit too small I think despite da masuk 36 weeks+ now... Kalau ikut the tracking kat BabyBump, he should be weighing 2.6kg by now... So Mommy will try to eat more ok lil guy... this week and next week hari-hari kite mintak Babah belikan Baskin Robbins - macam zaman2 Kakak Nia dulu...ekekek... anyways, Baby A is doing good in the tummy.... head down and still showing no sign to engage... amniotic fluid is ok...heartbeat is strong....so, everything is good to go... The Doctor asked us if we have decided on the date, so we told her our options, either on the 10th or the 11th... as expected, she agreed with 10th of June.... so, terus la book OT and gave me the green admission form sume... nak book bilik terus tak boleh - we can only do that 1 day before the operation - so kena call hospital... But hubby said, takyah la susah-susah, so we opted for the Premium Room... kena la topup sikit from the amount that Shell normally covers... asal selesa lepas operation nanti... so peeps, the official date is - Friday, 10 June 2011... Fuh!!

afterwards, off we went to KLCC.... kan semangat nak pergi carnival Mothercare tu...eheh... dengan boyot-boyot ni, masih jugak gigih pergi hokeh... the store was not as big as i imagined it would be...but ok la, it has more items than other Mothercare shops... there were clowns, wheels of fortune draw lots, face-painting, free popcorns and free cotton candy... Ingatkan pack giler, but lucky for us, we were there quite early, so that 'traffic' inside the store wasn't as bad... bought a couple of things, feeding bottles for Nia and Baby A...found my Lansinoh nipple cream, bought gifts for Vikrant's new baby too... and a few new tshirts for Kakak Nia...and Baby A's first blue bear...hehe...

At the store, Nia did her face-painting...one on her right cheek and another one on her arm....suka la makcik tu...ade glitter glitter and diamonds being sticked all over her...then we went to the next counter, where she got a pink beads wristlet made for her - jadi free sebab Babah dah purchase macam2 item kat Mothercare... so, after that, mula la dia berangan jadi Princess...*sigh*...ehehhe....afterwards, we went for lunch at Chilis... Nia was so tired, sampai tertido kat table tengah makan...kesian betol la munchkin ni....after lunch, we did some window shopping since baby girl dah pengsan ni - take the opportunity to go around kejap :p...pas ni nak dating susah da...nak plak kena perintah berkurung 45 days nanti...fuh!....then , we decided to leave KLCC.... drop-by at Masjid Negara for prayers....siap tunggu sampai Asar...then we went to Lake Garden...ahahah... semangat gilak I tell u....Babah nye la...cos he promised to the lil missy that he'll take her to the playground...alang2 da memang kat area tu, he decided to drop by terus kat Lake Garden....so biar la let loose some steam at the playground for 1hr+...

Then on Sunday morning, we went to the Curve.... saje gatai bawak Nia pi tengok KungFu Panda 2... ternganga je la Nia inside the cinema.... there were no songs unlike the typical Princess-sy movies that she loves so much.... so ended up, dia keep on asking me, kenapa tu...kenapa tu...kenapa tu...eheheheh...hadoii...cian anak mommy...couldn't understand the movie so much....but she had fun - bole la gelak-gelak at some of the actions yg funny.... after the movie, we asked her, if she wants to watch Panda again.... then she answered, "But I want to watch Princess!!"....haihhh...princess lagi....kena ajar suke benda lain apart from Princess la mcm gini....

that was our weekend, how was yours? did you had a good time like we did? I hope you do... ;-)

Me Want To Go.... Jom Jom Jom Mommies?!!

Feeling Bad

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past 2 months... I noticed that I have to sleep in earlier than the usual timing, cos by midnite, I'll be wide awake and susah sangat for me to get back to ZzzZZz-land afterwards... reason being bukan ape.... one if because of the ever-bulging tummy... so yes, its getting bigger and bigger... so, it has been very difficult for me to get into a comfortable position to sleep... then, we have the toilet trips... for instance, last night je la....I think i had to use the loo for a total of 5 times...then the 6th time, bgn solat subuh....by then, memang rasa sangat exhausted cos of sleep deprived.... dah la nak bangun with a pot-belly is ain't no joke ok... asal nak duduk je, I had to use the baby cot handrail yg ade next to me...then I can pull myself up... kalau tersalah angle, my calf for sure akan cramping - cos of muscle pull.... dah la nak kencing tak tertahan, cramping la plak...aiyoooo... so yes, I am really really looking forward to delivery... bukan la nak complaint... actually i'm taking this is a practice run....yer la, after this pon memang sleepless nights jugak... with Baby A around... but sometimes, u just miss the times when u can just sleep uninterrupted... nak plak tgk sebelah, Nia and Babah nye syiokkkk je tido...haihh... saba je la...

Making things worse...now kalau takleh nak tido at night tu...mula la otak ni duk pk macam-macam.... one of the things that is constantly messing me up is, i have this guilty conscience about Nia having to be a Kakak at such a young age....adoii...tak tahu la kenapa...i keep on feeling guilty that she won't be getting our attention 100% dah lepas ni...yer la, with Baby A around, she'll have to share us la... selalu rasa kesian to Nia... and now i noticed that i tend to give in with her more... which is no good jugak in the long run... *sigh*...i wonder if other parents feel the same way too... sometimes when she sleeps, she looks very much like a baby still...yer la, baru 2.5yrs young kan...takut jugak in case Nia tak puas lagi nak bermanja...mm...i really hope that she can adapt and accept her baby brother nanti...tu lah nye...some of the mommy's concerns... ini tak campo risau about the delivery, about managing 2 kids and a husband, about my work which requires me to have nightly telecons with 2 kids, about the pain after delivery, about my ability to fully breastfeed... huwaaa.... ingatkan benda-benda ni risau time nak bersalin for the first time je... rupanya, its the same cycle again...geeezzz...get a grip....okla, whatever it is, i've taken a few days leave prior to my delivery date...harap-harap that few days can actually put me into perspectives and calm me down... mommy needs to be mentally and physically prepared to go through this... Insya Allah...