Si Cheeky Monkey!

Scene malam tadi...

Nia: *syiok duk mengorek hidung*
Aaryan: sitting facing Kakak and intently watching was she was doing

2-minutes later...

Nia: hmmmm...(while looking at her finger dengan hasil yg dikorek tadi)
Nia: "Adik...... nahhh...makan ni..." (sambil disua-nya taik idung dia kat mulut adik)
Aaryan: *blink*blink*blink*
Mommy: "Nia....bagi adik makan ape tu?"
Nia: "theee heee heee....taik idung Nia..." (tanpa perasaan bersalah)
Mommy: grrrrrrr

Cuteness in a Box

Got these cuties today from mr hubster's boss...its a gift to everyone for his son's full-moon occasion...sangat cute kan...and it smells delicious too..have yet to taste them though... Huhuhu...




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I got a new nephew last week...So Aaryan got a new friend to play with when he's older...my sister safely gave birth to a healthy bouncing baby boy, weighing 4.63kg....yes....that was not a typo error....memang betol 4.63kg...:p....both mommy and baby are safe at home now...berpatang with my mom...tengok la gambo future BFF ni....suddenly my boy looks small di sebelah cousin nyer...eheheh....anyhow, welcome to the family...baby Zafran Khalis Bin Uzair...

So Where Have I Been

Ok... 3 weeks hiatus from this page... It's not that I've been away yg super jauh ke ape... Cuma I've been swamped! At work and at home... Byk benda nak story-morry ni...But let's start with one story yang paling kecoh skali - our girl Nia, was warded in Damansara Specialist again - making full use of my medical quota for year 2011...

So what really happened?

Memang I was planning to take 1.5weeks leave starting dari end of Nov sampai first week of Dec...kebetulan on Wed - 23 Nov (my last working day), mr hubster was feverish and so was Nia...so, that day, we decided to leave the office a lil bit earlier...went back home and amik Nia skali nak gi clinic..her fever wasn't that bad...temp was just 37+, but she was pretty weak that day...so at the clinic, tgh nunggu turn tu, I saw her face was quite pale...pucat sampai kuning-kuning dah...so when we saw the GP, I told the Doc la, ape pasal si Nia ni kuning skit...riso gak...so the Doc check her tummy....in case of any swelling to her spleen and liver...at this time she was quite weak...lembik and nak berdukung je....which is quite worrying since her temp tak panas mana..lepas da check, there's no indication of swelling, but we were immediately referred to the Hosp...makanya, went back home, packed our stuff and terus gi Emergency Room kat DSH... there, the doctor took some blood samples to do some tests...by then temp dah start to go up to 38.5...terus dapat one shot of voltren...since Nia ni ade fit history kalo demam panas sangat, so we hv to be a bit careful, cannot let her fever run so high...then we were told to wait for an hour for the test results to come back from the lab...maka, tunggu lah kami...

45-mins later, the doc called us back in, and told us we need to get her admitted...sebabnya, her red cell count (hemoglobin aka darah merah) is too low...her reading at that time was 7 and the normal min reading for any person is supposed to be 10...so 3 levels below the min amount...my feelings at that point of time - risau, takut, sedey, u name it, sume bercampo aduk... earlier, when we came in to DSH, we called her Paeds - just to inform him of her case ni, and he told us not to worry, it could just be a regular case of Keratin-overdose...nampak gayanye, its more than that la now... so before naik to the ward, they had to take more of her blood, cos now they need to do more tests to see the cause for the Jaundice - dah second round amek darah - mengamok lagi la princess ni...by then she was pretty pale and yellowish...so after all the processing, we finally settled down in the room at 1.30am...Nia was already asleep time tu - I guess tired from all the crying sebab kena cucuk situ sini... :-'(...my feelings masa da settle masuk bilik and watching her asleep - Ya Allah...risau and takut - Tuhan je yang tahu... I couldn't sleep the whole night and spent my time googling on the symptoms and possible deseases related to it...texted mr hubster who had to go back home to check on Aaryan - dia pon takleh nak tido jugak...eehhe....i guess, both of us had sleepless night malam tu...

so, 2nd day, Dr Musa, our Paeds, came is super early...7.15am he was already with us checking on Nia...cos the night before time warded tu, cuma kena check by the ER doctor...some of the blood test results came back as negative, so we still dont know whats the cause...Nia was a lil bit active on the second day...and can even play around and chit chatted as the usual...she was still pale and yellowish but the Paeds said, as long as she is active then its not so worrying...that afternoon, Dr Musa had to draw more blood from her...3rd time during our 2 days stay....to do more tests...as everything has came back as negative - again!...I was getting more concern now and very very very worried...but can't do much cos still tak tahu ape cause...so...3rd day came...Nia is getting very lethargic on this day...weak, loss of appetite and no mood to play at all...throughout the day, she didnt take any solid food and cuma minum 2oz of milk and a little bit of water and juice...so, we had to start her on glucose IV sebab kencing dia pon da start jadi kotor...partial blood test results came back and it showed that her red cell count was even lower now...6.3...if it goes below 6 there are possibilities of breathing difficulties, heart and internal organ failures, etc....my feelings? *cry*...hmmm....tapi bile org datang visit, control je la, cakap we are ok...so, that afternoon on the 3rd day...Dr Musa came and check, and he finally decided that Nia will need to do a blood transfusion...we were kinda hoping not to do it, since she is still small...there's not side effect whatsoever, cume taknak la kalo bole...the original plan was to get a second opinion from a Paeds blood expert based in University Hosp - but he was away travelling....so in order not to make Nia's condition worse, we had to have the transfusion quickly...at this point of time, i don't really care la...nak transfuse ke ape, as long as we can make her feel better again...so the nurses prepped her, sambung the wires and started the transfusion...tak banyak pon...cuma 1 bag of blood...at this time, i feel so grateful to whoever la yg menderma darah tu (marila kite menderma darah lagi lepas ni ye rakan-rakan)...so, the transfusion took 5 hours to complete and we need to monitor her for any side effects - fever, rashes, heat-flush, etc...

4th day...transfusion ended at 1.30am...wires are out and she's just left on the regular IV drips and some antibiotics for her fever yg dah start to subside....Alhamdulillah - there are no side effects so far and our girl is back to her chirpy noisy self...my feelings? Syukur Jazakallah...Alhamdulillah... my child is healthy again...

5th day...monitoring continued....the Prof from UM is still on leave, so we can't get the 2nd opinion still so Dr Musa decided to discharge us, since Nia's vital signs are OK now...Alhamdulillah...we got most of her blood test results...it's -ve for dengue, -ve for hep A/B/C, enzime checks are normal and G6PD is also normal...last one yg pending is for talasemia check and will only come back in 1 weeks time... so balik la dulu doctor kata...the chances of re-lapse: tak tahu...what if it happens again? terus bawak gi hosp if she shows any of the symptoms that we had before this, lethargic, dark urine, loss of appetite, pale and yellowness of the skin - check on her face, tummy, palm and feet...sounds pretty normal symptoms kan...mmm...any pantang or whatsoever? no....cos she's a perfectly healthy girl and since tak tahu ape cause sebenarnye, there's basicaly nothing we can do...

so follow up a week later...talasemia results came back and as expected, it's also negative...so the final rule is, doctor said, it must've been viral infection....(this is one powerful virus we're talking about!!...phewww)...so she's now on multivitamin precribed by the doc and folic acid - untuk tambah red cell...other than that, she's now back to herself seperti biasa...the final diagnosis that we got masa discharge was: Hemolytic Anemia hope this will never ever happens again...Sebab this is one scary parenting experience that I hope none of us will have to go through....Seeing your child weak and pale...Ya Allah...you feel so helpless and you just wish that you can make everything better again....I salute to other parents who might have to face dugaan yang lagi besar from us... sesungguhnye, this experience is humbling for me...for now i realized, how small we are and how precious life is....Alhamdulillah, Nia is all better now...berkat doa from everyone...Thank you all and Thank you Allah...and of course, thank you to Shell for paying our medical bills throughout our 5 days stay at DSH... :-)

Blood bag ready to be infused

Mommy said, solat dulu before masuk fresh blood - doa to Allah so that, with this new blood, Nia jadi sihat again..

The difference between healthy pink and whity paleness

The following day....dah bole senyum...

Salam Maal Hijrah!!

Salam maal hijrah dear friends... From all of us..so ape azam tahun baru ni...semoga kite semua dapat berhijrah ke arah yg lebih diredhai & diberkati... Insya Allah...

Belated Birthday Present

...my post birthday present as I hit my last 20s...

didn't really know what to ask this time around, so he surprised me with this, yesterday...

ehehhee....senyum sampai tinge la mommy...LOL...

and as expected, the owner ni takde time pon lagi nak membelek the gift...

cos asyik duk kena berebut with Nia je...LOL...

Thank you Mr Love...for this pleasent surprise...

I love love love love love it...

(but I think Nia loves it more than I do kot...)

Sama Tapi Tak Serupa

Hi!

My name is Aaryan Faheem..

and I'm turning 5 months young in another 10-days

These are my most recent pictures...

So who do I look like the most?

Do I look like Mommy?

...or...

Do I look like Babah?

...Pick & choose...

White!

after a whole week of green milk...akhirnye susu kembali putih today...back kata Nia..da jadi susu snow white again..no more shrek milk...ahaah..

Kaler yg Berbeza

i dunno why..but my ebm is changing color..express pagi lain warna...noon time lain warna..petang pon lain...the one on the right tu, kalo tgk under natural light looks whitish greenish..my husband said, susu flavor pandan kah?!.. ahahah..what about u mommies out there?.. hv u experienced something similar?

Goooooooooooooooo Emerald!!!!

hhaahhaa....tengok la mak orang yang debab ini main futsal...eheheh...

currently Kerang tengah ade macam inter-wing/floor sports carnival...so saje la join...
boleh berpeluh and excercise at the same time...
as you can see, i'm playing for the green house or EMERALD..thats for all of us in Downstream IT ni...
although kami tak menang dapat no.1 last weekend....(Sedih ni...)...tapi still dapat jugak 3rd placing out of 6 teams...ehhee..not bad for a team with mommies as the players....so obviously the winning team sume yg ade anak-anak dara yg lincah bertenaga...ahaha...takleh nak outrun derang la...
these girls are really fast!!...hahah ....(alasan!)...
all in all, yang penting is, we had fun....bole la masuk lagi next time...Goooo Emerald!!..
*cough*cough* penat menjerit

Saya Suka Encik Serigala Yang Jahat

Last Friday, I took 1 day leave semata-mata nak pergi melawat Encik Serigala. Nasibla annual leave ade banyak lagi. Boleh la sesuka hati nak cuti - padahal baru je balik from maternity leave kan. Anyhow, Friday morning tu, sanggup pi redah traffic, and sent hubby off to work kat Gardens. Kebetulan dia pon ade course kat situ, so takyah la nak gi office kat CBJ. Sempat breakkie together-gether kat Gardens (on a weekday, kalo tak jangan harap la...although kami ni satu office, tak pernah pon breakfast sama-sama...huhu..) After that, exit from Gardens, passed by Old Klang Road and Taman OUG and terus ke LDP... Sampai la kat MAEPS quite early, 10.15am dah siap parkir hokehh.. kiasu tak kiasu...huhu...and yet, dah banyak dah kereta duk berderet siap parking taw....i saw the tramp already waiting at Stop C, so cepat-cepat hop on and waited for the rest to come on board too...quite impressive service they have here...the tramps are quite frequent, so takyah menakung tunggu lama-lama....tak tahu la how it is during weekend...guess i'm quite lucky sebab pergi on a working day, so kurang skit la visitors kot...5mins ride and sampai in front of Hall A...there's no queue at the entrance, terus je dapat masuk and jeng jeng jeng....WOWWWW!!...terpesona tgk the exhibition centre yg full of books!...ahahah....that place was HUGEEEE i tell u... and books are everywhere...mcm org meroyan jap terpesona and terkesima tengok buku-buku itew....nasib la Encik Suami takde skali...kalo tak confirm dia gelak tengok mata bini nye yg duk melilau takleh nak focus nak tengok yang mana dulu...ahahaha...

anyhow, taknak cite panjang lebo sangat...basically, i spent 1/2 of my day there...ahahah...browsing and browsing and browsing and still browsing...damages done for the day?...eheheh...not as bad as i thought it would be....i capped my spending at MYR300 papehal pon...so, after my selection-spree, i sat at a corner and re-calculate hasil tangkapan...and to my surprise, after choosing a total of 28 books, i only have to pay a total of MYR204....not bad at all...8 books for Nia, and the rest are all for me...hubby doesnt really read..so nothing for him...ahaha...tried searching for some boardbooks for Aaryan...tapi takde yg best...so, i guess this is my reading stock for the whole year....takleh masuk kedai buku lagi dah sampai Q4 next year...(yeah righttt!!!)...hheeheh....for now, all the books dah kena nicely arranged in the library at home...tumpang la library arwah my dad kat umah tu....all the racks dah overloaded pon actually....sampai kena perli with my mom....wahahah....nasib lah...mana nak cari buku murah2 gini lagi ek...sekali setahun ja...:p...papehal, enjoy the pictures...

... signage to 'D' place...the tram ferrying the visitors to Hall A and my view as soon as i step inside..

...look at those books...and the people buying 'em...

...some brought trolleys...some uses the discarded boxes....ade yg bawak luggage bag with wheels...and i had to carry the heavy books using the ikea bag...adoii....patut bawak trolley pasar hokeh...

... Hasil tangkapan for the day...

...Nia happily posing with her new Princess Tiana book...

Nak Cuti Ke Mana Ye?

Does anyone has any recommendations for a holiday resort locally in Malaysia that is children friendly? We are planning for our holiday next year. And Hubby doesn't want to go abroad since Aaryan is still quite young and it would be a handful travelling with both kids. (nampak gaya angan-angan nak pi Hong Kong kena postpone lah ni..bummer!). Anyhow, I've been looking around for some cozy places that we can go next year. By then Aaryan would grow up a lil bit more. For the time being our options are pretty much limited. Langkawi is definitely out since we went there early this year. So other options that we have is either Penang, Cherating or perhaps Sabah/Sarawak. No island trips for us, since we can't enjoy much and takleh nak turun pi snorkelling (although this is our favorite activity time berdua dulu :p) since we won't be having any Bibik around to look after the kiddos.

For now, I've only checked out two places. First option is Club Med Cherating. A lil bit on the pricey side (a whole lot la actually). For a 2 nights stay for all 4 of us, that will costs us around RM2700 (baik mek pi holiday over the sea kot :p). That price is incluvise of room rates, taxes, surcharges, gourmet meal all through-out the day, sports and activities. Kira its an all-inclusive price package la. Unless kalo nak add on spa treatment or Kiddy Activity for Nia, then we'll have to pay extra. Googled for some reviews for the resort and seems pretty promising. But I remember reading a blog somewhere (last year) that they had some problems during check-in. I'm a lil bit reserved on this kind of resorts actually - those yg mat salleh oriented. Sebab selalunye, the treatment that they give to a foreign traveller and a local visitor usually differs. But I shall reserve that judgement until I can see it for myself.

Second option that I've checked out tapi rasenye takleh proceed is Pangkor Laut. Huhuhu. Oh-so-awesome resort. But I think this is more suitable for honeymooners kot. One thing yg rasa 'bahaya' skit is the open air shower. Kang ade jugak yg si Nia terkezot kalo ternampak mommy or babah showering nanti. LOL. Tak ke naye. But if it's just for the 2 of us, this would definitely be in my list. Romantic gitew u ols. Bercanda underneath the moon, anyone? *naughty grin*

Another one that I like is Shangri-La Golden Sands Resort Penang. I know the hotel is pretty nice, they have a huge pool, the beach is white and sandy, and ade activity site for kids - which I know Nia will enjoy very much. But we've been here before for Family Day last year with Kerang and I feel like rugi la if we repeat going to the same place twice!

So, I'm open if anyone has any other suggestions. My requirements would be, nice+comfortable+clean+spacious room. Kids friendly. Huge pool. Anything in mind? Please let me know ya wahai rakan-rakan. Sabah/Sarawak suggestions are also welcome kalo dah takde yg kat Peninsular ni. I'm sure Malaysia has something nice to offer, cuma tak tahu je kat mana. Do share with me if you and your family have been anywhere fun and nice. It might be worth checking out.

Wordless Wednesday

Nota Kaki:

- Loving Bruno Mars -

My Babies

waduh waduhh....sedar tak sedar...today ngam ngam both my babies are another month older... Nia turns 31 months young hari ni...and Aaryan is officially 4 months...Alhamdulillah, my babies are all well, sihat, gebu, montel, bijak and talkative!!!...ahhaha... kakak can go on and on talking non-stop...and i noticed this past few weeks, she can start playing with a wilder imagination....she can act out princess scenes from the disnye movies that she loves so much...on top of that, can even sing....she plays with her dolls and babies and speak to them in her own version of english...ahahah....tah ape dia ckp...pong pang pong pang bukan main lagi...english version pelat i'd say...:p...

as for adik...si dobot yg forever happy....he's never fussy...smiling all the time...nangis only when he's angry or sleepy...still not showing any signs of turning over to his tummy....and kepala pon still jugak duk head-banging...ahahah....takpela...berat kena tarik dek pipi kot...:p....

macam tak sangka plak, how fast time flies...goshh...rasa mcm baru je kluar spital...anyhow, i'm enjoying my time with both of them...snuggly wuggly time...everyday bau susu masam kena muntah dek Aaryan pon best je...akaka....perfume to mommy's nose...LOL...whatever it is, i'm glad to see both my babies growing up healthily, Alhamdulillah... next year kite plan birthday bash hip & happening lagey...:p

IT Refresh

We are re-structuring, again!

Sesungguhnya, if u work with a MNC,u have to be mentally prepared for a re-structuring exercise all the time... Similar to everyone else who affected because of the previous economic meltdown, the same also happened to us, despite working with one of the O&G giants....so, tak semestinye, koje company beso ni selamat naaa...

Back in 2009, we had a major restructuring exercise...3000-5000 staff kena cantas globally....leaders not excluded...sume kena...across all functions and businesses....now, this month, another wave jadi...and this time it is specifically to the IT structures... lucky us, this time takde yg losing jobs...cume tuko reporting line, new structure layout and such...katanye to make it more effective ...tahu la how management talk kan...

this morning, i had a quick 121 session with my lead from Houston...and found out that my team will be moved from our current function and masuk under another business function....total revamp of reporting line...teruja? boleh tahan la...that means, we get to have a bigger portfolio...and that also means, i'll have a new boss nanti...takut jugak ni...hopefully boss ok and still flexi and understanding as what we currently have...when will this take place? April 2012...so now, its the transition period for everyone...

so like what they always say here in Kerang...you have to embrace change...darn it....kalo dah slalu sangat change...nak embrace pon dah lali kot...hahaha....so let's wait and see...and hope for the best...

Waduh!

tengok ini calendar ku yg menggila...mahu tak sakit jiwa and raga, kalo every week mcm gini...baru balik maternity leave 3 weeks and I'm back to my same state before cuti dulu...lucky me, at least now, at night takde la hari2 ade call...still have la sometimes...but not so regular...kesian anak-anak kalo tak...haihh...mommies out there...mcm mana la korang cope and manage work life balance....i envy you...*sigh*...

117 Days Young

Si dobot mummy hearts u very d berry much!!..

Potluck at Our Pad

Smalam first time kami meng-organize potluck at our own place... ade umah tapi tak duduk...how how how...so, last weekend,we decided untuk pi tido kat 'Summer House' kitorg yang habuk da berkepuk tu... Friday night, spring clean...(ponat!)...Saturday....chillex the whole day and did nothing...lepaking at home tengok tv empat beranak...sunday... buat potluck u alls...ahahaha...nak masak for a guest of +/- 20pax tak berani...kang ade yg makan food masin la hape la...so, we make it as potluck...tak ajak ramai pon....ajak my close friends je dulu....trial run ni....rumah pon takde furniture kan...takat ajak derang-derang ni, takde la malu cos barang tak lengkap at home...keh kehkeh....these are all my girls from umah sewa kat zaman-zaman MMU dulu.... so, sume pakat bawak food masing-masing and anak bini/laki...punye la banyak rezeki...alhamdulillah....start at around 3pm...and lasted until Maghrib...selesai mop/vacuum/lap pinggan/buang sampai by 10pm (in between nak bersilat ngen anak2 lagi..mandi la...nak susu la...suap makan la...nak breastfeed laa...tak ke super-Mak ni u ollss)....flat!!!...perghhh..all the while asal buat makan-makan, we always have the help of my mom's maid...kali ni, my mom ade jugak offer, kot nak pinjam bibiknye sehari...but i said, no need...(fuh...dengan penuh confident)....we can manage katanya...hamek kauuuu...punye la ponat ngemas rumah....baru guest 20 org...kalo 50 org?...100 org?...memang mek cater je la...pehtu next day panggil cleaning serbis...wakakakak...

all in all, i had fun catching up with the ladies...dah jadi mem-mem sume nye....dah ade anak...ade yg tgh expecting...ade yg baru beli rumah...ade yg kerja tgh booming....zasss...happy for my girls...next time bole la organize lagi....yeay....umah Sarah plak, for house-warming...i jadik committee bawak desert..huhuhuh..

Saya Teringin Nak Pergi Hong Kong :-)

i know i've only been back to the office baru nak masuk 3 weeks...tapi tangan dah gatal duk start tengok holiday package kat airasia...kuang kuang kuang...tak kisah la...nak jugak share ini....

saje buat random googling....don't you love doing this...simply masuk any airlines website and tengok holiday package punye price range....for all you know, if you're lucky and so happen tengah ade promotion, dapat la good bargain....and this is what happened today...ekekek....

pagi ni saja la masuk airasia...fireflyz and mas takde promo yg menarik now...so i skip them...actually duk tengok flight ticket nak balik johor bahru bulan october ni...saja this time kami anak beranai gatai takmo drive....we decided to fly back sahaja....sebab si Nia teringin sangat nak naik plane again...tambah plak aritu pi amik Babah dia yg baru balik outstation kat Manila...lagi la sibuk dia duk mintak...so, Babah nye, layankan aje la....tu yg jadi kisah tengok website Airasia ni...then, saja la gatai tangan nak tengok international tickets...I've always wanted to take Nia to Hong Kong for a trip....so i checked the price range...tengok pi Perth, mahai la plak....hotel and flight sampai RM7k...tak jalan lar....tengok Hong Kong....danggg...RM3600 all inclusive price siap air flight ticket for all 4 of us...and 4 nights stay kat Dorsett Regency Hotel Hong Kong....not bad ni...its a 4-star hotel...menarik menarik....tapi travel period lambat skit la...this is in September 2012...September tu season ape ek kat HongKong?...sezok ke panas?...have to check that....rasa cam gatai tapak tangan dah ni...tapi apakan daya....takleh nak beli lagi...kena tengok calendar kurja kat opis ni dulu...if the travel period is not during my peak period....wahhh...cergas nampak gaya nanti....(kena pujuk sang Suami dulu ni nampak gaya nye..thee hee hee)

so, hopefully, I can get the Run & Maintain schedule for my process area for next year....cepat dapat, cepat bole plan cuti...Hong Kong, here we come....(angan angan...*wink*...)

Mother's Room

So, yesss...I am back in the office officially since Monday minggu ni...Workload takde lagi....masih boleh bersuka ria....dah start joining meetings again....lots of things to catch up....boss pon dah warning lepas ni much buckle up...cos banyak project baru...tapi sementara kerja tak menimbun lagi ni, I'm still enjoying my first week...:p...so I thought of sharing this special room that we have here at the office - the Mother's Room - my favourite room antara sume sume bilik yg ade (ohhh..apart frm the rest & relax room of course :-) )...kat opis ni, if mommies nak express susu, this is where we go...alhamdulillah, I'm thankful that I'm working with a company yang sangat baby-friendly... Shell supports breastfeeding you all!!...ahahah...and as part of their support for work-life balance too jugak la derang buat bilik ni ha...enough talk....let me just share some pictures with everyone...

The room is pretty big....roughly ade dalam 20 seats available for mommies to pump serentak...we have curtain partitions to separate each other during pumping session....we have seats yg macam ala2 single seater sofa...and we also have seats yg siap ade table and a mirror...ala-ala macam dressing table gitew....on top of that, each set of seat, will have 2 plug points....one point for the pump, and another one is for your laptop (In case anyone needs to be working while pumping)...we even have LAN points available, but of course the whole building is wifi enabled....tapi so far takde lagi la tengok mommies yg super rajin yg siap nak buat kerja time pumping kan...ahahah...

also, in the room, are 2 fridges....to store the EBMs....we have 4 full sized sterilizers for anyone to use...baby dishwashing liquid...and lockers to store our pumps....and to encourage breastfeeding lagi, they also provide 3 spectra pumps for anyone to use....so boleh bawak the tubes and kit je and connect...kalo taknak gune opis, boleh la angkut pump sendiri dari umah....for me, i just leave my pump at the office, cos i rarely pump at home....petang-petang angkut EBM je balik....

ok la...enjoy the pictures and happy pumping dear mommies!

Ape Pasal Takde Coverage?

Ya Rabbi...I've been checking my handphone coverage the whole day hari ni...pelik jugak...cos kat opis ni Maxis baru buat upgrade service for the network coverage...so harus la tiptop network dia kan...tapi ntah ape pasal, satu hari takde line..nak tweet pon tak boleh....then 1 hour ago, saje la try nak call out....skali out came this pesanan penaja..."we're sorry...your network line has been temporarily suspended until further notice. To avoid further disruption, please proceed to our nearest counter to make the necessary payments."... reaction: 'HAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! phone aku kena bar ka?!!!! oh-em-geeeeeeee!!"...

hadoiiii...awat la maxis ni....ni mesti sebab byk sangat guna data plan ni....ya ampun encik suami....saya tobat takmo main online game lagi...ahhaha..(main dulu tu pon sebab sangap malam-malam buta duk kena feed aaryan..sambil feeding, sambil gaming...ahahah....byk game free ade, nakkkk jugak gatai tangan duk main yg online..hamekkkk kau....padan muko...kan data plan aku dah burst...huwaaa...tension nye...dah la mek tgh kopak ni.....cos gaji last month half pay sebab maternity leave...tu pon dah abes spent for raya preparation....(fyi: kerang tak kasi 3 mths ML pon...kalo nak yg 3rd mth tu kena go on 1/2 pay leave)...haiyakkk...gaji sept ni pon lambat lagi...hubby pulak takde pi outstation kat manila this whole week...aiyaaa..camno boleh jadi mcm gini ni..iskkk....*slap*slap* own face....so how?...nampak gaya kena korek tabung laaa pi bayar utang kat maxis....huhuhu...

moral of the story??...toksah duk gatai tangan main online game lagi....pasni main angry bird je...toksah main benda lain...hiks hiks hiks...

Pffffttt....Habuk Berkepuk!!

whoaaa....lamanye tak update....bukan busy mana pon....but the thought of having to berebut laptop nak online ngen Cik Nia....terus pening rasenye...ahaha....nowadays, she's been hogging the laptop as though mcm terrer sangat nak guna....most of the times dia duk tengok cartoons lar....sampai naik pening mommy tgk cite princess...anyhow....just a few updates on us...

Raya went by smoothly....went back to my in laws in Batu Pahat for a whole week....before balik rasa mcm lama je 1 week tu...by the time da kat sana, pejam celik tup tup da time to go back to KL....tak sempat pon nak pi merasa makan pisang goreng pemes tu...adeihhh....next time balik BP have to make a point to go there...this is the first year we have Aaryan with us for raya....meaning, I have 2 kids plus one daddy to take care of during pagi raya....oh boy....berpeluh meks ok....no bibik u know....sampai tak sempat nak tolong sangat in the kitchen pagi tu...luckily my sista in law has a maid who did all the stuff in the kitchen....rasa bersalah la jugak....tapi bersilat nak menyetelkan budak2 pagi tu...ahahha..luckily i managed to get ready in time by the time hubby came back from solat raya...

raya aside...believe it or not...my maternity leave has officially ended yesterday....a total of 90 calendar days....today i am still on leave...tapi annual leave la....took AL for 2 days...and will be back in the office this coming Monday...oh-em-gee.....tak percaya je rase....3 months flew by us just like dat...sedih nak tinggal the 2 babies at home after this...da takleh nak golek2 in bed with them anymore siang-siang...:-'(

then next week mommy jadi single again...akakak...cos hubby is going for outstation for a whole week...so kite nak beronggeng ke mana?....thee hee hee...oki lar tweeps...i'm at the service centre ni...tgh serbis kete...gotta go...will update again next time...

My First Hari Raya

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Dah Ready for Raya?

so raya is just around the corner....are you done with your raya shopping?...baju raya anak-anak dah beli?...i betcha yg ni first skali on the list kan...hehhe....biasa la....kalo raye ni, budak-budak la yang paling syiok...and for mothers like me, i just love melaramkan my kids with new clothes and new shoes....this year, shopping baju for Nia, sampai over the budget....ehehhe....yer la, gi shopping malls, tgk girls punye clothing line, punyer la comei-comei belaka...mommy menggilak sekijap...ehehhe...tak ketinggalan for our newest and latest family member si aaryan ni...dia pon sekenit ni ade jugak baju raya....ade new tshirts, jeans and of course kemeja...i gotta admit, i did went around a few places, looking for baju melayu for a 2-3 months ol baby...ahahha....tapi harus la takde kan...my mom said, over lar kot kalo aaryan pon pakai baju melayu...aakkaka...ok what...harus cute!!!....:-p...

so what's your color theme this year? kami sekeluarga, had to recycle last year's color theme again...so it's gonna be grey for us this year...sebabnye, Babah refused to make any new baju melayu...cos he barely use the one that we made last year...so, mommy and nia and aaryan je la yg cari baju grey baru to match with him....for the first time this year, i bought all my baju kurung....normally i always tailor-made them...tak pernah beli...this year sebab baru sangat abes pantang, and tak sempat da nak anto baju kat my regular tailor tu....so had to go to Subang Parade and bought 3 pasang....masa beli baju, super stressed....cos my buncit tummy ni....i sooo hate my buncitness right now....mcm mana nak ade flatter and toned stomach ni...arghhhh....nak pakai corset, nanti susah plak nak breastfeed di hari raya....so i just hv to bear with the buncitness i guess...:'-(...

biskut and foodies for raya macam mana plak?....this year, i'm going back for raya at my in laws in Batu Pahat, Johor....my MIL ni tukang amik tempahan buat biskut raya...so harus la tak payan beli biskut bawak balik for her....so i just bought some kerepeks and agar-agar kering to bring back nanti....then ade some serunding daging too...so no nasi dagang la this year...hehehe...bau je la nasi dagang from johor...:-p....next year baru beraya kat Kuala Terengganu with my grandma...confirm meriah cos sume akan balik....teruja!!!...eheheh...

so we plan to go back hari Sabtu.....hopefully the traffic wont be as bad as i imagine....pagi tu nak ziarah kubur arwah abah dulu kat sini....then we'll shoot off around noon time, Insya Allah....what's your travel plan?...i heard over the news smalam, someone announced something about ikut plate number kete to plan for balik kampung journey...biar betoi depa ni....pelik-pelik betoi la...ahahah...whatever it is, just remember, to drive safely...think of your loved ones and your children....use your seatbelts and put your kids in their carseats too...

ok la tweeps...i've gotta go...will try to catch up just before raya kay...till then, selama berpuasa....selamat beribadat di penghujung bulan ramadan..selamat bershopping for raya...and enjoy these moments with your families and friends....

Si Comot

Gummy Grin

woke up this morning and was greeted with these...definitely u just made up mommy's day!... heehhe...love u much baby boy!

70 days young

Juadah Berbuka

Sahur Day-4...

Food campo aduk for peeps yg malas like me...

What's cooking for sahur day 3?

Konon2 nak eat healthily during ramadhan...ehehe...this is what I made for sahur...food org malas...

Pumping Milk

Hasil for pumping session after sahur... hoping for more tomorrow onwards..

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Selamat menyambut bulan mulia, Ramadhan al Mubarak... let's pray for a truly blessed and meaningful Ramadhan this year for all of us.... my Ramadhan started off on a grey note... but i pray that the 30 days can give me solace that I hoped for... Insya Allah...so, lets increase our amalan this year...ameen...

My Babies

Children are truly a miracle.. They heal you with their laughter..

Pffffttt....Habuk Berkepuk!!

waduh...lamanye tinggalkan blog sampai dah bersawang...takde time campo too many things utk share sampai da berkeladak jadinye...:p...so, whats happening around us now...today, Aaryan dah 48 days young...Alhamdulillah...tak banyak ragam...at night bangun 3x-4x....so mommy sometimes agak zombie-fied during the day...ahahha...we've mastered feeding while lying down...so, normally subuh onwards, i will sleep while feeding him....so takde la mengantuk tersengguk sengguk sangat...akakak....sometimes, funny jugak...cos i will catch myself snoozing tersengguk2 while feeding...ye la...lama duk tunggu dia kan...nak baring and sleep while feeding time tengah2 malam tak berani sangat...dah baca all kind of cerita baby lemas duk feeding ni....so, tu la have to stay up...

so how is kakak coping with the new addition?... ;-).... jealous?...of course la....but she doesn't vent it out on the lil brother....in fact i think she loves Aaryan and becomes quite protective of him already....although sometimes tu, (banyak times also la)....berebut jugak la attention Mommy from adik...especially at night time nak titon...so i have to make sure that Aaryan is tuck in earlier so that, by 9.30pm, Mommy is all free utk baring baring golek golek with Princess pulak... but so far, I think she has been doing great...(with a lot of help from my mom and our bibik also la)...kalo tak mahu tak clingy makcik kenit ni...:p....

what about mommy?... I'm doing as the usual...not much of dieting this time...jadinye, my weight is stuck at 60kg now...huwaaa...horror hokehhhh....so, harap2 sangat bulan puasa ni, i can lose some kilos....dah plan dah, nasi makan time buka pose ja...then sahur is cereal...with a lot of water intake in between to make sure milk production will not be affected...fuh...banyak hokeh nak kena lose...then target nak gi brisk-walking around the neighbourhood starting next week....bole la tolak si nia tu kat dalam stroller...bring her along...just to burn some calories...nak workout macam zaman2 anak dara dulu, rasa nye takde stamina lagi kot...so kayuh slow-slow....at least turun 5kg pon dah happy kot...but kalo boleh nak turun 12-15kg...ahaha...so that weight jadi mcm time before kawen dulu...achewahhhh....no harm in having angan-angan right...:p...

this weekend, we're having some family time, just the 4 of us...part of our ritual...kalo dulu lepas habes pantang Nia, we went for a quick getaway kat Pullman Putrajaya...time tu Pullman baru je bukak...guests pon tak ramai... this time, we decided to go to town...so it's gonna be somewhere in Bukit Bintang...nanti I will snap lots of pictures hokehh....can't wait for the break... boleh lepak2 and bermalas-malasan...

ok la...will try to update more often from now on...cite delivery Aaryan pon tak sempat nak post...and I have a special entry nak tulis about my spa retreat recently...:p...till next time, take care lovelies...muwakss..

All About Aaryan

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Wordless Wednesday

25 Days Young

we've reached the 25 days mark today.....so jom imbas balik kenangan time kakak 25 days young dulu..... then we can see sapa lagi tembam....ekekeke....

Susu

susu susu susu.... rasenye these past 3 weeks, i drink, sleep and even dream about milk...ahhaa... that's how obsessed i've been with milk... during my pregnancy last time kan i've been wanting to breastfeed Aaryan longer than Nia... Nia dulu tak tahan lama...lepas 2 weeks je da campo formula kot.... susu tak banyak that time then time tu plak buta ilmu skit...akakak.... so ended up i gave up and gave in to s26...ahahaha.... this time, Alhamdulillah, so far so good...mommy kena la sacrifice skit...this time pantang i still eat mcm biasa...takde diet ke ape (like what i did time nia dulu)...nasi maintain, lauk pon maintain....minum air bergelen-gelen...ahaha...tak campo with herbs drink and susu and horlicks and bagai macam la....so result?....

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first time expressing smalam.... Alhamdulillah, dapat 4 oz... ehhehe...petang express again and dapat another 3 oz.... pagi ni nak express, but found out my pump buat perangai again...langsung tanak switch on... so looks like we finally have to get ourselve a new pump....haihhh... sabo je lar...dan dan time kite da bersemangat pumping ni, time ni ler pump nak buat perangai plak.... so now kena pump hunting lar plak...eheheh....

Oppsss....Overly Late Entry

Happy 3rd Anniversary dear Husband.... I love you then, I love you even more now and in the future...

Note: terlambat nak post cos I had to celebrate our anniversary confined in the hospital bed back on the 14th of June, cos Aaryan had to be warded because of jaundice...ehehe...nanti kite celebrate betol2 after pantang is over kay - complete with the 2 kiddos in tow... ^_^

Introducing Baby A

Hello lovelies...

Lambat plak update... Been overwhelmed since the arrival of Baby A last Friday... Alhamdulillah, the surgery went smoothly well... Can't story much about the delivery right now cos I'm back in DSH with Baby A bcos of jaundice... Just nak introduce our Junior to all je dulu... And I will update the story morry in the following entries kay...

So meet the infamous Baby A... Which actually stands for: Ahmad Aaryan Faheem Bin Fahmi... Out into the world approximately around 9:05am on Friday, 10 June 2011 weighing 3.02kg with the length of 48cm... Mommy decided to call him Aaryan... Tp Babah nak panggil Ryan (glamer katanye akakaka).. Tak kisah la, asalkan both ada maknanya... I dun really mind... So whats in the name this time?..

Ahmad: Prophet's name
Aaryan: Utmost strength
Faheem: Brilliant (sama mcm kakak nye for Aqeela)
Ryan: Gate of Heaven

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Final Day Countdown

Dear Baby A,

Percaya tak percaya, we are almost there reaching our finishing line tomorrow... Macam-macam we went thru together... From Mommy's early evening sickness... Muntah everytime balik kerja dalam kereta Babah..ahahaah... To mommy's continuous constipation...ahahah... then came along the piles (erkkk....ya ampun - make sure next pregnancy tak kena lagi da benda alah ni....seksa!!).... then kite went thru a very high fever once - luckily we were not admitted - although babah dah jadi nurse ala2 nurse kat DSH jugak cos mommy da lembik to the bone... but Alhamdulillah, you are still growing strong in the belly... and I'm very thankful for that... tomorrow Insya Allah we will meet and greet each other for the first time and I have to say I'm quite nervous as much as you are too... so nervous that Mommy even had a nightmare malam tadi hokehh...eheheh...anyhow, on top of all the nervousness, I am very anxious and excited to see your chubby face... my prayers for the past 9 months tak pernah stop even once so that, baby mommy ni, sihat and sempurna, Insya Allah... so, lil guy, make sure you get enough rest today, cos tomorrow is going to be a big day for all of us... till I see you in the operation theatre esok, just remember, that i love you so very much!...

To my dearest Princess Daania...

Mommy is not sure how much of all these happening that you can actually understand...but one thing that I want you to be sure of is, regardless whatever it is, you are still very much the princess of my heart... i love you so much and i'm very proud of you that you are going thru this very bravely... and i am very sure that you will adore your baby brother in no time too...ehhehe... frankly, mommy da tak sabo da nak amik gambo Nia baring berdua with Baby A nanti...i'm sure you both will look very cute...i'm sorry that i won't be lying next to you when you wake up from your sleep for the next 2-3 days....but mommy will be back home very soon and you can also come over and visit mommy kat hospital nanti ok sayang....till i'm back home, make sure to behave yourself, dengar cakap wan and kakak imah hokeh...love you lots baby girl...

To my Husband...

Thank you for being next to me all through out this journey... thank you sebab jadi tukang urut blakang when i'm all over the toilet bowl... thanks sebab tolong basuhkan my puke afterwards...ekekekke....thanks for accompanying me to the countless visits to the hospitals and clinics without fail...thanks for being my nurse when i'm down under... thanks sebab jadi tukang paksa makan ubat...akakak....else, sure sihat lagi lambat kot...lol...thanks sebab tolong letak minyak angin and giving me a backrub during those wicked bad days...thanks for waking up and staying up next to me when i can't seems to fall asleep...thanks for sharing my fears and my worries and for reminding me of what is important...thanks for coming into the OT with me tomorrow and most of all, thank you for being the father of my children...i love you very much...

So finally, mommy is ready and will be all packed today to check-in to Hotel Hospital tomorrow morning... till my next post with details on Baby A's arrival, take care all and do pray for my safe delivery, Amin... :-)

A Question That I've Answered More Than 10 Times

So ok... I've finally reached to a point whereby I'm getting upset when people are asking me this particular question... "Kenapa nak bersalin Ceaserian? Go for normal delivery lah.." seriously people....I would've chosen vaginal birth if I can.... Not that I really want to have a ceaserian operation to be done on my tummy again... my experience from the first one dulu pon cukup la to let me know that the healing bit after the operation memang sangat seksa rasenye.... Kalo people yg buat VBAC, in 2 weeks time dah back to normal, for me last time, after 1 month I can still feel the pain from the operation.... so why on earth would I wanna choose the hard way of giving birth?.. haihhhh... the problem now is, i don't have a choice.... the position of Baby A is way too high up in my womb...if i were to go for a normal vaginal birth, it will be a very longggggg delivery which can lead to stress to both mommy and baby.... on top of that, the doctor will need to use either the forcep or vacuum to pull the baby out... now this is where the tricky bit comes in.... nak pakai forcep n vacuum memang boleh, tapi another problem is sebab the baby is too high in the womb, those two equipments are too short to reach the baby's head....so it will also lead to an emergency c-section operation.... on top of that, due to the long delivery, that can cause distress to the baby or it can lead to a stop of oxygen supply to the baby sebab mommy also in stress (and will cause brain damage to the baby) or worse still, there's also a possibility that we might lose the baby....now why on earth would i want to pose all these risks to my unborn child?... hmmm... ok la, i know la all of them are asking out of good intention, but seriously, do u think we would make a decision without consulting and getting the best opinions from the doctors?.... its a major abdominal surgery we're talking about here.... and FYI, ceaserian birth is considered to be one of the safest method to delivery a baby nowadays since you'll have all the specialists in the OT at the point of time...

On top of that, I've heard so many stories of other mothers who were also advised to opt for a ceaserian delivery but yet insisted to go on normal vaginal birth and ended up, having a baby yg mentally slow due to all the stress and cut of oxygen flow to the brain.... Nauzubillah.... selagi boleh avoid and minimize any potential risks to my child, I will do just anything, be it going under the knife again....

So please la people.... stop asking me and using that tone as though i'm making the biggest mistake of my life when I chose to have a ceaserian as what my doctor has advised.... Because this is our child, and we are doing this our way.... what we hope from you are your prayers, so that everything will goes on smoothly, Insya Allah...

One Small Happy Family

Last Day!

Alhamdulillah... my second most waited day (most waited day harus la D-day next week kan :p) for this month da sampai...ehehe...today is my last day at work...last day masuk office....last day kena attend meeting...last day to dial in to telecon....last day to submit documents in GLL.... last day to send out any emails from office outlook....ekekek...then, its 3 months holiday ya'll... fuhh!!....tak saba tunggu 6pm...weeehooo!!!

for the past few months kerja menggunung bagai nak rak...there were a couple of times that i actually broke down and cried sebab tak tahan with the nightly telecons (dang!! cry baby...akaakk).... tapi the following day, buat jugak lagi...ahaha... that's how resilient we are...yer la, since hidup bergaji ni, terpaksa la kan... so now its my time to rest...amik cuti a couple of days earlier, nak siapkan any last minute items before Baby A pops out next Friday.... and actually I wanted to use these last few days, to have some TLC moments with Princess Nia yg manja tu ha...ekekek...just to give her some extra attention before that attention kena divert kat org baru nanti...ehhehe...

ok lar...back to work...last day to concentrate...tomorrow onwards bole joli katak before the night feeding duty calls...:P...have a good day lovelies!

Breast Pump

Alamak!! In our eagerness in preparing for the arrival of Baby A, kami terlupe nak test out my old breast-pump... So 3 days ago, Hubby brought out the box and test it out... and to our horror, pump tu tak bergerak at all... not a single sound...not a single movement from it, tuko bateri tak jalan, plug in kat power plug pon sama - still tak jalan jugak.... aiyak...before this, I loaned the pump to my sister-in-law since she was breastfeeding and didn't have any pump of her own... memandangkan pump yg ade kat rumah ni tak pakai, kasi je la pinjam daripada duk lam cupboard - membazir plak... and everything was working perfectly fine - in fact she even tested before returning it back to us, and the pump was still moving... suddenly 1 week before the baby's arrival, saja la pump ni nak buat perangai pulak kan...hishhh... so, this weekend nampak gaya terpaksa la kami menapak pi kat service centre dia... have to check what is wrong with it... i hope it can still be fixed with a 'reasonable' price... else, kena pk alternative lain la pulak... :-(..

How Was Your Weekend?

Our weekend was packed!

Sabtu pagi, we went for my last check-up with the Gyne kat DSH. Alhamdulllah, Baby A is looking fine - Doc cakap baru 2.4kg - macam risau la pulak - a lil bit too small I think despite da masuk 36 weeks+ now... Kalau ikut the tracking kat BabyBump, he should be weighing 2.6kg by now... So Mommy will try to eat more ok lil guy... this week and next week hari-hari kite mintak Babah belikan Baskin Robbins - macam zaman2 Kakak Nia dulu...ekekek... anyways, Baby A is doing good in the tummy.... head down and still showing no sign to engage... amniotic fluid is ok...heartbeat is strong....so, everything is good to go... The Doctor asked us if we have decided on the date, so we told her our options, either on the 10th or the 11th... as expected, she agreed with 10th of June.... so, terus la book OT and gave me the green admission form sume... nak book bilik terus tak boleh - we can only do that 1 day before the operation - so kena call hospital... But hubby said, takyah la susah-susah, so we opted for the Premium Room... kena la topup sikit from the amount that Shell normally covers... asal selesa lepas operation nanti... so peeps, the official date is - Friday, 10 June 2011... Fuh!!

afterwards, off we went to KLCC.... kan semangat nak pergi carnival Mothercare tu...eheh... dengan boyot-boyot ni, masih jugak gigih pergi hokeh... the store was not as big as i imagined it would be...but ok la, it has more items than other Mothercare shops... there were clowns, wheels of fortune draw lots, face-painting, free popcorns and free cotton candy... Ingatkan pack giler, but lucky for us, we were there quite early, so that 'traffic' inside the store wasn't as bad... bought a couple of things, feeding bottles for Nia and Baby A...found my Lansinoh nipple cream, bought gifts for Vikrant's new baby too... and a few new tshirts for Kakak Nia...and Baby A's first blue bear...hehe...

At the store, Nia did her face-painting...one on her right cheek and another one on her arm....suka la makcik tu...ade glitter glitter and diamonds being sticked all over her...then we went to the next counter, where she got a pink beads wristlet made for her - jadi free sebab Babah dah purchase macam2 item kat Mothercare... so, after that, mula la dia berangan jadi Princess...*sigh*...ehehhe....afterwards, we went for lunch at Chilis... Nia was so tired, sampai tertido kat table tengah makan...kesian betol la munchkin ni....after lunch, we did some window shopping since baby girl dah pengsan ni - take the opportunity to go around kejap :p...pas ni nak dating susah da...nak plak kena perintah berkurung 45 days nanti...fuh!....then , we decided to leave KLCC.... drop-by at Masjid Negara for prayers....siap tunggu sampai Asar...then we went to Lake Garden...ahahah... semangat gilak I tell u....Babah nye la...cos he promised to the lil missy that he'll take her to the playground...alang2 da memang kat area tu, he decided to drop by terus kat Lake Garden....so biar la let loose some steam at the playground for 1hr+...

Then on Sunday morning, we went to the Curve.... saje gatai bawak Nia pi tengok KungFu Panda 2... ternganga je la Nia inside the cinema.... there were no songs unlike the typical Princess-sy movies that she loves so much.... so ended up, dia keep on asking me, kenapa tu...kenapa tu...kenapa tu...eheheheh...hadoii...cian anak mommy...couldn't understand the movie so much....but she had fun - bole la gelak-gelak at some of the actions yg funny.... after the movie, we asked her, if she wants to watch Panda again.... then she answered, "But I want to watch Princess!!"....haihhh...princess lagi....kena ajar suke benda lain apart from Princess la mcm gini....

that was our weekend, how was yours? did you had a good time like we did? I hope you do... ;-)

Me Want To Go.... Jom Jom Jom Mommies?!!

Feeling Bad

I've been having trouble sleeping for the past 2 months... I noticed that I have to sleep in earlier than the usual timing, cos by midnite, I'll be wide awake and susah sangat for me to get back to ZzzZZz-land afterwards... reason being bukan ape.... one if because of the ever-bulging tummy... so yes, its getting bigger and bigger... so, it has been very difficult for me to get into a comfortable position to sleep... then, we have the toilet trips... for instance, last night je la....I think i had to use the loo for a total of 5 times...then the 6th time, bgn solat subuh....by then, memang rasa sangat exhausted cos of sleep deprived.... dah la nak bangun with a pot-belly is ain't no joke ok... asal nak duduk je, I had to use the baby cot handrail yg ade next to me...then I can pull myself up... kalau tersalah angle, my calf for sure akan cramping - cos of muscle pull.... dah la nak kencing tak tertahan, cramping la plak...aiyoooo... so yes, I am really really looking forward to delivery... bukan la nak complaint... actually i'm taking this is a practice run....yer la, after this pon memang sleepless nights jugak... with Baby A around... but sometimes, u just miss the times when u can just sleep uninterrupted... nak plak tgk sebelah, Nia and Babah nye syiokkkk je tido...haihh... saba je la...

Making things worse...now kalau takleh nak tido at night tu...mula la otak ni duk pk macam-macam.... one of the things that is constantly messing me up is, i have this guilty conscience about Nia having to be a Kakak at such a young age....adoii...tak tahu la kenapa...i keep on feeling guilty that she won't be getting our attention 100% dah lepas ni...yer la, with Baby A around, she'll have to share us la... selalu rasa kesian to Nia... and now i noticed that i tend to give in with her more... which is no good jugak in the long run... *sigh*...i wonder if other parents feel the same way too... sometimes when she sleeps, she looks very much like a baby still...yer la, baru 2.5yrs young kan...takut jugak in case Nia tak puas lagi nak bermanja...mm...i really hope that she can adapt and accept her baby brother nanti...tu lah nye...some of the mommy's concerns... ini tak campo risau about the delivery, about managing 2 kids and a husband, about my work which requires me to have nightly telecons with 2 kids, about the pain after delivery, about my ability to fully breastfeed... huwaaa.... ingatkan benda-benda ni risau time nak bersalin for the first time je... rupanya, its the same cycle again...geeezzz...get a grip....okla, whatever it is, i've taken a few days leave prior to my delivery date...harap-harap that few days can actually put me into perspectives and calm me down... mommy needs to be mentally and physically prepared to go through this... Insya Allah...

A Lost Forgotten Girl

Ya Rabbi....

The world is really coming to an end.... Somehow lately ni, banyak sangat news about children passing away...this is just so sad and tragic... memang lah dikatakan takdir.... but seriously, i don't get it how can we forget our child and left them for a solid 1 hour locked inside the car under the scorching sun!!...Masya Allah... not that I would want to judge the father... I'm sure it was not on purpose ke ape... so negligence aside....i just truly hope that this kind of things will not happen dah lepas ni.... Parents should be more vigilant and alert... tak kisah la time tu tengah kelam kabut ke...tengah stress ke ape ke...but our children should always be protected, no matter what... okla....mek taknak emo lebih-lebih...to know further why i'm being so dramatic, sila la click kat link bawah ni....

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/24/nation/8744565&sec=nation

http://www.bharian.com.my/bharian/articles/Budaklemasdalamkereta/Article