Kira Jangan Tak Kira

For awhile, I've been having this debate with myself and have actually been discussing the same with Fahmi jugak. We are thinking of Junior No. 2 but at the same time the thought that our centre of attention will have to be divided to 2 babies is tearing me apart. Nia is still so small and she just reached her 17 months milestone today. If we were to get pregnant now, by the time Junior 2 comes out, of course Nia will then be 2 years plus. But still, I feel so sad that she has to be a Kakak at such a young age! But on the other hand, we plan to have a big family. Maybe around 4-5 kids. And my target is not to get pregnant after the age of 35 years old - so that we won't be too old by the time the youngest wants to get married. At this rate, that would mean that we will need to get pregnant every 2 years of cycle time! Whoa - talking about kilang pengeluaran yg sungguh cergas!

I've done some calculations:

Junior 1: Deliver @ 27 yrs old (2009)

Junior 2: Deliver @ 29 yrs old (2011)

Junior 3: Deliver @ 31 yrs old (2013)

Junior 4: Deliver @ 33 yrs old (2015)

Junior 5: Deliver @ 35 yrs old (2017)

This means that assuming that they all get married at the average age of 26 yrs old, both myself & Fahmi will be at the age of 53 by the time Nia wants to get married and 61 yrs old by the time Junior 5 gets married. *Phew*. So would mean latest, I would be a granny by the time I'm 54 or latest 56? Ha-ha-ha.

But then again, 5 Juniors will mean that we need to save a whole lot of $$$ for each of their School Education, University Education, Health Insurance, Extra Classes and Marriage Fund. Whoa!!~ Ini tak include any miscelleneous expenses, holidays, field trips, bla bla bla.

How lah? We might as well move out of KL and live where the cost of living is awhole lot cheaper - some kampung anywhere? Bole ke kitorg duduk kat kampung? Yikes?!. Or migrate to a place where they can pay us more and allows working flexibility for parents. *Sigh*. Or maybe I should be a SAHM who runs a business portal from the comfort of my living room? Hu-hu. Any ideas?

Basically, my concern is still:

Kesian Nia who has to be a Kakak at such a tender age - Fahmi is telling me that every parents must feel the same way when they are trying to get Junior 2 rolling along since Junior 1 has always been the apple of our eyes. I really hope that we can still be fair in terms of attention and so on - although its pretty hard to judge since it is very much subjective. Nonetheless, this should not stop us of from having our own plans, right? ^_^